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  • Artist Info: Growing up is the hardest thing I will ever have to do, <br />
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    Because honestly, now I don't give a flying ******** about it anymore. I can't find the light I so easily saw not too long ago. I miss the days where I didn't have to care. The ones where I could see my own ambiance, and the effects I had on the ones I cared about. Now I question nothing, because I am beyond the point of where I really care anymore. The past two years have been riddled with pain, hatred, betrayal, depression, death and life, and I have done nothing but sit back and let things take their tolls on me. <br />
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    I gave them, my friends, my life. I gave them everything I could without hurting myself, and now it is all coming back to haunt us. Each and every one of the people who took me for granted and I, but there is one who said that this is my choice. I know it is, but I don't have the strength to change it anymore. She says I do, but in truth, I don't want to: there are parts of my life that I love that have only come because of how horribly I considered myself. <br />
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    I learned to swallow the sorrows of everyone else, but none of my own. I learned to put others above myself. This is what I get for that and for being a Leo, a lion Rising in the sunset, and for being me. I deserve it because that is what I believe I deserve. I am a hypocrite, because I would never wish this on anyone, but I deal it to myself. I have my own story, one that I never wish to have to tell, but I know that one far away day, I will wake up, look back upon myself and my life, and realize that I will be beautiful the way I will be, and it would all be thanks to the way I raised myself under the pressures of life. <br />
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    But I'm not there yet
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