• it couldnt br true i thought....he cant leave! john cant move away..."Tara...i cant.....i cant stay.. " he said. he wouldnt look at me at all. i knew he couldnt, why would he want to stare at his best friend that he knew he would never see again.

    "but john, we have always been there for eachother, why cant u be here for me the one time i need you to stay!" i was screaming now. "i dont want to leave! i really really dont!" he started screaming too. "but..."

    i touched my face, feeling the tears slide through my fingers. i looked down, and put my face in my hands. i felt his arms wrap around me, and heard him whisper with sorrow at my ear. " good-bye Tara" and thats when i felt his tears on my shoulder, he was shaking. or maybe that was me...

    "john, we will always be friends right....?" i said to him. "practically brother and sister, i promis, i will never forget you Tara" he said, pulling me back to loo at me. "this cant be goodbye....." i said. "Tara...u have to let go..." he said looking at the sky, his tears shimmering like silver on his face. "let go....but john i thought---" " No! Tara, u need to let me go!!!! u need to forget about me...." i was shocked, and numb. "john, u promised tpo never forget about me...and that goes the same for me. im never going to forget about you. not ever" . i hugged him, and he hugged me back, both of us weeping. the bell rang.

    he pulled away. " i have to go now..." "bye john......" i said wimpering. i stood ther and watched him walkout of sight. i cried for several days after that. it would neer be the same, i still felt numb, everything i heard, or looked at reminded me of him.

    but somhow, john left me with somthing very important.

    he left me the memories of his smile and laughter, and that was all i ever needed to move on.

    ~ Tara