• My life has been a train wreck since before i was one. Before my first birthday i had a little brother born, but one week later he died. My mom started to push me away in fear that i would be taken from her. Then my youngest brother was born a year and a half later. My mom called him her little savior and forgot i existed. For years i tried to get her attention and to get her to love me, but with no success. Within these past few years she has tried to get me to love her with bribes and gifts, but i wouldn't because she had blown her chance. last time i saw her, she apologized in tears for forgetting about me all these years but i didn't care. I've been pondering it and wondering if there is something wrong with me but i quickly get over it