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Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

She watched him go, suddenly feeling very light headed and woozy. She glided over towards the bathroom where Lucy was, almost as if on auto-pilot. She poked her head into the bathroom. "Hey, Lu, you in here?"

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

Her head still felt really light and her cheeks were still flushed, and when Lucy arrived, Tamara sighed heavily. "So, uh, not very interesting, I know... So, uh, the fifth floor is boring except for the Prefect's Bathroom but the door is locked. On the fourth is a secret passage to the Prefect's Bathroom if you wanna sneak in."

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

"Um...fourth floor..." It was apparent she was still really lightheaded. She leaned against the wall and rubbed her head. "No, not really. The third floor has a passage that I haven't tried yet."

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

She rubbed her temples and gave Lucy a weak chuckle, a little revitalized by her excitement about the passage."Okay, let's go then. I think this one doesn't need a password. It's just... hardish to find."

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

Tamara had been crying hard since leaving Professor Lupinous' office, more upset with herself at being weak than at the Professor for what he said. He was right, after all. Her father had killed a lot of people and it didn't phase him like this. It wasn't just that, though. It was the whole ordeal that had her plagued with these night terrors. Now wandering aimlessly through the sixth floor crying, Tammy realized she didn't know where she was. Still sobbing, she walked to a windowsill behind the drapes and curled up there. She lay there crying, praying that no one came past to hear her tears.

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

Tamara was lost in her own world, sobbing her eyes out while her mind raced through its own inner torment. She didn't hear Tyler when he questioned the crying or when he said her name and asked her if she was alright. It was when he touched her that she reacted. She jumped and screamed. Her eyes were wild for only a second until she recognized Tyler's face. "Oh Merlin! Tyler you scared me," she said weakly, her eyes dropping to the stone of the windowsill. Her hope that no one discovered her was shattered. "I.... I'm fine... actually," she said, almost in a whisper. She couldn't even find the strength or energy to make her lie believable. You're pathetic. You're weak. You'll never be like your father. You don't deserve to be related to him. You. Are. Nothing. that voice rang out in her head. It spoke in her voice and looked like her, but it wasn't. This her was able to talk. This her wasn't afraid.

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

Tamara looked at Tyler, tears still streaming down her face. She really wanted to talk to to him, to tell him what was wrong but she couldn't find the words. Because you're weak, the voice in her head said again. You are pathetic. You can't even tell your friends what's happening. She wanted to stop the voice, to find out what was wrong with her and stop it. But.. she couldn't. She grabbed her head without thinking and bashed it into the stone wall. Get out of my head! she screamed to herself. Rearing back again, she bashed her head into the wall again, tears running down her face. She pulled her head back a third time, intending to smack her head against the wall again.

Tamara "Goldilocks" Radcliffe

She made a small surprised noise when Tyler pulled her away from the wall and out of the alcove. She had completely forgotten that he was there. Her eyes still puffy red and streaming, she looked at him bewildered for a second, then threw her arms around him and cried. After a decent cry, she pulled back and looked at him. "I can't... I can't... do this... any of this... anymore. I'm... I'm a f...f...failure... I can't beat it... I can't... I can't..." She started to cry again, collapsing to the floor in a crumpled mess. She continued to mumble "I can't..."