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Farewell to a good friend
Update | October 2, 2007
Due to my profile being featured, many just read this entry of mine. I appreciate all your kind words and support. If you would like to read more about my friend Icarus, I established a charity called UTOPIA to honor him. We also have a little shrine for him, just click this link if you wish to visit it - LINK.

The past 3 weeks I've been rarely on gaia due to hectic RL schedule. One of my major priorities was to conduct a charity event in Manila which was held last December 14, 2006. I was aiming to launch a website to show the event to all of you on or before Christmas Day. But there were some issues I cant ignore, the launching of my website was postponed. I've been working around the clock to manage projects for the company I am currently employed with. I manage a team based in Manila so my timezone is pretty much screwed. I am sad that I have no time to visit Gaia and join the holiday events setup by the admins and the little giveaway thread me and my friends organized. Time passed by quickly and so was my ability to recognize the year 2006 actually ended.

Last Friday January 5th, 11 PM my body collapsed due to anxiety panic attack (I refuse to admit I am overly stressed and my will-power to function is limited to my brain ). I dont recall much, but all I know its been very difficult for me to sleep and relax. I find it hard to eat and I feel nauseated even if I think of food. My condition isn't life threatening, its a result of my negligence and taking my health for granted. After a few weeks of rest and obedience to follow my medication I will be back to normal.

My medication helps me relax, but it does make me dizzy and become uncoordinated. Good thing about it I dont need to work as much. So yesterday I managed to log back to gaia (even for 5 mins) to close down the holiday thread. I also informed a few of my friends about my health condition and limitation to be visible online. Today I have another few minutes to check gaia and I try to read as many PMs as possible and respond to each and everyone of them. A certain PM crushed my heart, it made me realize health and life shouldn't be taken for granted. One of my dear friends/supporters in gaia passed away - Icarus.

Midoriwa
I know you were a good friend of his so i am giving the notice i gave everyone in our guild and am working on giving the charity and things.


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I don't know how to tell you guys this. It is a very hard thing for me because I loved him dearly.

Icarus was sick. He had bad headaches and then nosebleeds. He would get very sick. One day he passed out in class and he was rushed to the hospital. They found a mass on his brain and had to run tests. His roommate said that he died in surgery on Christmas day.


It was a hemotoma. That means his brain was bleeding..sort of like a bruise. That is blood under the skin but this was in his brain.

Darren is my first love and I will miss him so very much. He helped me discover a lot about myself and to really grow up.

He's gained his wings and can truly fly to the moon or sun and back.

He will be missed greatly and remembered.


I managed to know him in a personal level (even if its just virtually). For a young adult, his wisdom and persona is beyond his years, I consider myself lucky to cross pathed with someone like him. It hurts me to know that I wasn't around much to talk to him during his last few weeks. He was one of the first few people I talked to about my real life charity work. I have so many plans to have him participate and even assign him to be a content writer for articles I plan to make. It hurts me to know he wont be around to participate and witness the projects he help me planned.


I will never forget you Icarus, you are a genuine person and a true friend. You are one of those rare individuals who gave me support for nothing in exchange besides the joy of helping a friend. It makes me sad I cant give you a tribute equally as remarkable as the one you`ve given me. But I promise to do my best for everyone to remember you, your good deeds, talents and your amazing personality.

Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance.

My prayers are always with your family, friends, loved ones and of course you (wherever you are). And if there is a heaven (and if I was given a ticket to enter) expect a little tap on your left shoulder coming from me soon.


Yours sincerely,
Lexi
(your virtual big sister)


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funk rockin the queen
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comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 12:23pm
yay you're really creative! i love ur sig and your journal as well ^_^


comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 04:48pm
OMG Lexie thats terrible, but its really great that you want to help others. I really feel like crying now. I hope there are a lot more people out there like you, people who like to help.
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comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 05:40pm
User Imagetrust the midas touch


comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 05:49pm
wow i'm very sorry for your loss. I don't know darren but i'm sure he was great guy for you all to have said such touching things about him.

hope you're all bearing well

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comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 06:08pm
I'm sorry about the loss. Hope everyhting gets better


comment Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 02:41am
Hi I really like how u update this journal and how you write it oh and really nice profile!!! But that was a sad loss I hope u do keep up your health up. Many blessings...Theworldsenimie


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Let the wind take me away~

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comment Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 04:08am
HOW CUTE!!!! heart heart :
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CLICK ON IT!!!! PLS BUY ME THE STUFF!!!!!!!!!!
OR THIS AND THE SAME BUY ME PLS!!!!! crying
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comment Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 10:43am
I live in Manila. It's getting colder again here. 3nodding



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comment Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 12:09pm
I too have never met him, but he will be in everyones heart forever and ever.
Lexi, this entry has made me realise how much my good health actually is.
You and Icarus have been an insparation to me.
Rest in Peace Darren.
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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 02:33am
Hi



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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 02:38am
I am going to do what u say and here is my comment
I <3 ur profile
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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 06:51am
New here, PLexi...

So sorry to hear of the loss of your friend.



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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 08:57am
i never felt so alive rolleyes rolleyes rolleyes rolleyes blaugh blaugh blaugh 3nodding 3nodding 3nodding whee whee biggrin xd xd dramallama dramallama


comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 01:46pm
that is soooooooooooooooooooo sweet.............................and sad.

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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 01:51pm

and im only 12 years old xd

but still i feel bad 4 u crying sad crying sad crying sad cry


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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 02:01pm
R.I.P Icarus 2.0 R.I.P

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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 04:21pm
Time to leave a random comment behind.
Not realy but im gone complament you on the best flash profile of gaia.
It really rocks and your icons, i realy love them. heart
Good luck and i hope i will see some more of your great work! .


comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 06:06pm
Hope everything turns out alright. Wow. This is truly amazing.



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comment Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 08:09pm
That is so sad what happened to Icarus I am so sorry for what he had to go through. that almost made me cry from what you said about him. I bet he was an awesome person and will be very missed on gaia and in real life. God watch over Icarus and all of his loved ones. crying
~ Amanda heart ~


comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:16am
congratz!



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comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:25am
I hope everything works out.


comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:32am
I am so sorry to hear of you're loss...

I don't even know you or him, and yet my heart still aches while reading it. I am so sorry to hear of his death.

My heart goes out to you, and God rest his soul.



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comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 02:30am
I'm about to cry now, because it hurts to see this. I know what it's like to have someone die, and now I'm scared for my friends.


comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 04:12am
I hope every noob who is making a joke of this feel how hard it hurts!



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comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:53pm
Hey your profile is the best on gaia i ever seen


comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 01:52pm
Hey your profile is the best on gaia i ever seen



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comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 03:22pm
how thoughtfull of you... and I'm really sorry for your loss...
I'm not that great saying things when it comes to the death of someone I don't know at all; but I did my best.
May you recover soon enough though.


comment Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 04:35pm
wow i`m srry that u lost ur friend i hope u can still be happy but don`t give up just look 4 another one to help get ur mind off the other one. well don`t know wat to say xd xp cool mrgreen crying



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comment Commented on: Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 09:07am
Ok I have no idea who this Icarus guy is.

But he sounds like a GREAT guy.

Sorry for your loss Plexi

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comment Commented on: Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 04:09pm
That made me cry! crying
And I never knew who he was!
But I hope he's in heaven now. He sounded like a great person.
I'll pray for him!

-TwilightStarRoses



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comment Commented on: Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 10:30pm
WOW THAT WAS PRETTY SAD(sheds a tear 4 u)BUT U KNOW IT TAKES A STRONG PERSON DO SHARE SOMETHING SO PERSONAL SO IN A WAY I'M CONGRADULATING U


comment Commented on: Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 11:39pm
all i did was click the feature profile and found yours. But your profile is amazing and this story really touches my heart, You have a wonderful way with words which makes it even more enjoyable to read.

I do not know Icarus but would like to know more about him. If someone could Pm me with a bit of his story I would be extremely grateful



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comment Commented on: Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 11:40pm
all i did was click the feature profile and found yours. But your profile is amazing and this story really touches my heart, You have a wonderful way with words which makes it even more enjoyable to read.

I do not know Icarus but would like to know more about him. If someone could Pm me with a bit of his story I would be extremely grateful


comment Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 06:13am
R.I.P Icarus

I'm so sorry to here about it, it's so sad sad don't worry, once we all die, we'll go up into the stars ;] you'll see him again, it's just in the meer future <333



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comment Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 08:22pm
Don't hear, don't deem
Drowning before you dive
Don't care, commit
To your self destruction drive
I kiss the ground
With love beyond forever
Flip off the sky
With bleeding fingers till I die

Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch
Shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but
I don't care anymore
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?

Wake up, don't cry
Regenerate to deny
The truth, the fiction
You live in blindfold on your eyes
Disclosure, self loathing
This time you've gone too far
Or could it be my nemesis
That you're me?

Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch
Shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but
I don't care anymore
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?

[Laiho's solo]

Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch
Shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but
I don't care anymore
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?

Are you dead yet?


Ello' Chaps! I be needing about eh, 23k total. I be wanting 2 more Damascus Armors to make it better. please, all you have to do is donate 1k at least. Please and thank you. you will be remembered!

3k/23k
Thank yous : Aslinn
comment Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 10:55pm
awesome



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comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 03:09am
i hope you get better soon! and im sorry about your freind crying


comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 05:11am
how do u do that O.O its so awesome



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comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 06:15am
Even though I didn't know Icarus, I wish him luck up in heaven and you better get better with your health missy! xD Your so kind I think that Icarus loves that you care so much about him. I wish you luck with your future. <3 -hug-


comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 07:43am
crying that was so sweet i know a girl who died on that month.



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comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 08:57pm
Ohh! cry I'm so sorry, I'm holding back my tears right now, and I didn't even know him


comment Commented on: Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 11:03pm
I am sorry to hear about Icarus, but wherever he is I'm sure he's proud of you. 3nodding



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comment Commented on: Thu Oct 04, 2007 @ 04:21am
when somthing bad happens the brave look back at it the strong tell about it


comment Commented on: Thu Oct 04, 2007 @ 07:23am
Every time i read this (Which was six times) I cried heavily

This was So touching i will never take my friends for granted


Rest in peace Icarus

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comment Commented on: Thu Oct 04, 2007 @ 09:37am
I may have never met him, but now i wish i did.
To hear such wonderful things about him makes me wish i met someone as sweet and kind as him. I do hope that everyone will say a blessing even if they never knew him because to lose someone in a situation like this shows me that life is to short and we should all watch out and look after our loved ones.

Lexi- You are a wonderful person, having the time to tell us about this shows how much you care and it is wonderful. He had such a wonderful friend there beside him and i am sure he will be thinking of you where ever he may be smile


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comment Commented on: Thu Oct 04, 2007 @ 08:56pm
Well,I saw your profile and I loved it.Nice journal,as well,Plexi_lexi



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comment Commented on: Thu Oct 04, 2007 @ 10:39pm
On the day Darren left his friends
they lost part of their soul
for is that not what a friend is?
A soul in two people.
But do not mourn his death no more
for what happened is past.
He would want you to carry on even if you are half


comment Commented on: Fri Oct 05, 2007 @ 05:04am
RICH PERSON u said dont leave with out a comment lolz



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comment Commented on: Fri Oct 05, 2007 @ 09:38pm
Pay it forward






Its not to late to thank him


comment Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 12:00am
Hi Plexi!

Will you be my friend?!?!?!?!

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