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Now, some of my friends may know who Innis is. Regardless that the one who conjures Innis is female, I still hold Innis As my favorite Phase. People may think of me as a "bitch" and I know it too. However, Even the most loyal servants crack.
Now some of my friends read a couple of my poems, and realized that my nature (when it comes to writing) Changes so severly. I do not become the guy who goofs around, or becomes sensitive on a issue, but a person that you might think will try to bring down all of humanity!
I will tell you about the Jonathan inside me. The INNIS. I have many personalities. When it goes from fatherhood, to being a jackass, my nature could change and you won't recognize me. When I get angry, I don't give a shit who is here or there.
Now when I see the news about Iraq, I usually get pissed. Not at the fact that solders died meaningless deaths, but the fact the The news only focuses on the negatives. For the ratings they will say. They would actually get HAPPY when something big and terrible happens. More news equals more ratings, and thats all that matters.
I know one day I WILL crack. People show strength when angered, but I show a nature that is dark. The TRUE human nature. The nature that thirst for violence, death, deceit, revenge, and lust. The real human shows no mercy to a cry for help. I do not consider people like "leather face" or "John Wayne Gacy" true humans. They did not show their true natures, not yet at least. And when A person does obtain their purest form, They are locked away, drugged against their will and shut off from the other humans who show defenslessness
I still didn't get to my point. When I write, my true nature is unfolded. I write about hate towards pollution and shows, I show envy for people who didn't had to take care, I say people had it harder, but some are tougher than others. Than I reread my work and I wasn't even sure What I was thinking. These moods, these colors, they are released in one form. My outside self shows humor and compassion, but than I, I release this "dark" aura inside by writing. By telling the truth. I give violent responses to all those who oppose me, And I don't know why the next time I reread.
This is why i am Blue_Innis |
