Last night I was cosplaying in my loligoth outfit... and everything I needed to wear was either in the living room or in the kitchen (laundry was recently done) so I just got changed where it would involve less moving-the kitchen. After having my fun with my camera, I stayed dressed like that for another 2 hours while I talked to Atha. When I went to bed at around 1 in the morning, I changed into my pajamas (also in the kitchen) and I forgot to pick up my loligoth clothes. When I woke up this morning at 7 it was because I kept hearing this banging sound so I went to see what it was. My mom was home and she was turning on all fans and the air condition and opening the windows. When I picked up one of my socks after realizing I had left the clothes on the chair, my mom looked at me coldly and asked where I went last night. I tried to avoid it and got myself a glass of milk but she kept watching me and she asked again. I told her I didn't go anywhere, and that's the truth, and that I was just bored so I changed clothes and took pictures. And the look she gave me was as if she didn't believe me - I've seen that look. I can tell she doesn't believe that I was at the house all night. And I want to convince her that I didn't do anything but I don't know how. Because of Josh and I can't ask to be brought to doctors to check for a hymen and because of myself I can't get checked for the "cherry" because of damn masturbation...
So now its like I'm up a creek with no paddle.. and I haven't felt like this for a long time. I'm trying to beat my record of not cutting... I've gone 2 and a half months... I want to go longer, I don't want to dissapoint my friends or the counseler behind their backs... I'm trying to break the habit, I honest to god am. And I swear I'm still a virgin...
 Myth Tariyun · Sat Apr 02, 2005 @ 05:45pm · 3 Comments |
