Today hasnt even finished but I have to say this feeling I have is horrible. Today my step dad and mom came over.. and they told me we had to put my cat to sleep. I don't think anyone knows but my cat was there for a long time it lived like 11 years and went through a lot.. my brother gave her to me when I was really little I never really had a pet before her.. ((Rosie was the cat's name)) I started crying and I still am it really hurts.. I had to bring the cat to the vet and put her to sleep me and my whole family said good-bye to her. My mom couldnt even stand being in the vet's office. I had to wait like an hour before we could have her put to sleep. I felt so bad.. I can remember the day I got the cat. She looked so weak and helpless. I know we did the right thing though. It's just... I don't feel the same now. I know it;s just a cat but she helped me get over my friends deaths and my grandmom's death and my uncle's death.. you know.. things I can't really tell peopel.. but my cat would make me feel better.. Sh would just go "Meow" and look up at me.. or just pounce on me when I'm sleeping.. she was a fat cat I have to tell you.. but she was my fat cat and I loved her. I don't know how people get emotionally atatched to animals but we do. It really hurts when they die cause you really can't do anythign about it. I don't think we are going to get another cat for a very long time. My brother was all.. weird about putting rosie to sleep. He kinda made me feel bad. I balled.. and I didn't even know if I wanted to see my friends today. But I finally decided that I will cause they will make me feel better.. I can't even explain it.. I just try to act like nothing happened even though I know something did.. I'll probly add more to this journal entry later but for now this is all I can say...
Stakie Heart · Sat Apr 02, 2005 @ 09:35pm · 2 Comments |