Surprise, surprise. I didn't go to school today, Again. I'm too afraid to confront everyone, they'll probably think that I skipped (which I did), but even if I lied to them they continue to think I skipped. But, Whenever I return to school I end up over-exaggerating it in my mind, and I'm hardly confronted (now there's one advantage of being a loser xD). I'm especially annoyed because I never got my homework to make up, and I would like to be able to come into school being as prepared as possible, to just make myself seem in control. This morning I woke up about 20 minutes earlier then I usually do, which would've been a positive plus if I actually was to go to school. However, I was able to push my mom into thinking that I didn't have to go to school again today, which I feel bad for doing but I really DIDN'T want to go in (especially after remembering that I never got my homework). But, I know that if my sister doesn't get my homework before she leaves school (which I wouldn't put past her), I will have to go to school anyways. The last thing I want to do is be too worried about missing school over the weekend. I need to be in school at least one day this week, and I know I'm capable of doing so, but first I need to learn to control my paranoia. I've been taking my Zoloft, but it's only been helping with my anxiety about speaking in front of others. I'm highly more sociable around people, and I tend to worry less about how I am presented in front of others. I just need to get over the whole worrying thing with school.
Current Mood: Distressed and Crappy
I'm Listening To: The "To The Teeth" Album By Ani DiFranco
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