i was just wondering.... you know how sunlight is supposed to be good for you and be a symbol of happiness and goodness and whatever else.... well... do any of you ever feel depressed when you see the sun and really happy and peaceful when you see the moon or just the night sky?_? ive realized that i hate the sun... it always makes me feel so terrible inside... it causes an empty feeling and a longing for something-i have no idea what- and it makes me really tired.... i love the night... especially when its been really hot outside during the day and its just cooled down and the breeze blows and just this overwhelming happiness and calming sensation goes through my body and seems to grasp my soul...
lately.... iv felt as though... well... i dont really have any feeling... i mean... i couldnt even feel the deep anguish when i was sad... pain doesnt get to me nearly as much... and happiness just isnt there.... the only thing i feel is anger and the deep burning desire to destroy anything that causes me any form of frustration.... it sucks i cant feel anything except for on rare occassions... which usually occur in the bright sunlight or the cool peacefulness of the spring and summer nights.... ok well enough rambling... try not to make me feel embarrassed if you reply ok?_?
well time to do homework so that i dont fail this semester.... ill talk write in here some other time ... later.... who knows when... ahh more turmoil in my house.... omg...... to my room i go to do hw....bai everyone.... and no one and anyone and who ever....
Unni Ineo · Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 03:19am · 1 Comments |