Gaia's unable to retrieve my PM's right now...so, Imma use the default black. K?
Anyway...! Today's been a b***h.
Pechay got offended because I said that she was quite embarrassing from time to time. ("there's <insert whatever thing> on your face!" *people look* "It's just powder."..FTW!) And of course, since they love Pechay too much, they ranted at me. They even inserted a discussion about Paul. (What part of "I was trying to help" didn't you get?)
What pissed me off was...all that they cared about was her feelings and her self-being. Yes, she is loud and that's the way she is...BUT! They didn't consider how I am, did they? Didn't consider that I can be easily embarrassed about things like those. Y'siree, they didn't consider or think about MY self-being--all they cared about was Pechay. What do you want me to do? Adjust to her in every way and I'm not aloud to get embarrassed? Adjustment is alright. Her not being too loud and me not being too conscious would've been swell. But you people kept on giving me, "Besh. Pechay is loud. We luff it. It's your problem. ******** you." (indirectly of course) I bet ya'll didn't think of other ways didn't you. All that you took into consideration was Pechay's thoughts and feelings and never mine. Fine then, I guess I won't further explain more of actions anymore to you since you could only care less. D:
Most of all, I was already explaining myself when they went "let's go the CR, please."..and when we finally did the confrontation, they said that it was because the bell rung..Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurree, so, what did I just heard then?
What pissed me off the most was...she wouldn't even take the bother to rebuild everything. All that she said was "it's for the best". If we would separate into 3 or 4 groups, the gap will enlarge and I suppose you like that?! K. Pine. >:B
She said that we can still be friends...but like most, I'm pretty sure that deep inside, she's saying "leave me alone". talk2hand
Ok, Isa. What you all think isn't true!! The group going to divide into 4 was all a proposal. And even if we did do it, it would only be temporary. It was just for things to cool off. Second, the gap started already when you and Arlea came because none of us were that comfortable to share all of our secrets to the both of you. I know you were trying to help with the paul thing but i trusted you to keep it a secret but what did you do? You said it to him face to face. I wanted to say it to him by myself. I was waiting for the right time!! And you know what? Now, Paul and i don't talk to each other anymore. And what you're thinking about the CR thing isn't true!! The bell really did rang! And i wanted to wash my face because, i don't want anyone to see me cry!! Why? Well because i didn't want anyone to know about the fight!! Because i ddin't want them to think badly of you and me!! But what did you do? You went to the classroom and cried!! You got the attention of your whole section!! And you told them the whole thing!! And you know what? They probably all think I'm a bad person!! They all probably think I'm a bad person. I hope your happy now!! Just to let you know, i didn't tell anybody about the fight with the exception of our group, trina (who already is part of the group) and Jana (Who already knows because you told her.) I am trying to keep the group together. I WANT to rebuild everything. And i am trying my best to do so. The problem is you're being too negative. And now, I've decided, that the group shouldn't separate. I think all of you should stay together. And i'm going to leave and try to fly by myself.
P.S. I've been thinking about changing schools, so that the problem would already stop and all of you guys would live a good life. And i think it is my fault. So I'm sorry.
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AudaciousKlutz · Community Member · Fri Jun 29, 2007 @ 11:17am