I feel bored, socially withdrawn. Everything I want to do, I want to do it by myself.
But I suppose that this isn't completely true, so I shouldn't come to such a brash
conclusion so quickly. I hate being alone. I love being in the company of those that I actually care about, which essentially mean my closest family and friends. However, it seems that I cannot force myself into any sort of serious relationship. Perhaps the solution is not to force myself but instead wait for my emotions to catch up with the rest of my life? Whether or not the conclusion rests on high ground all depends on whether the emotions do as such. Even I do not want to spend the rest of my life alone, but I have no interest in having an emotional partner! ... Then again, love really hasn't been my thing. I'm more of a friendship person... and those who manage to squeeze their way past my armor find a fierce and protective friend. Still, I want more, but at the same time I don't.
Oh well... for now, I'm happy continuing my life the way it is now. Living each day as it comes, keeping friends close and keeping any female friends just that... friends. I'm not sure if I'm capable of... domokun
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