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People have complicated souls, some love the life there liveing and go threw there life, some wait for the pain to end and then try to go one, some cant handle the truth and go looking for awnsers, and some souls, like mine, try to give themselfs the currage to end the suffering and destroy there own life. people like me are hard to find because we hide our pain behinde a laughing face that no one can see threw, and you'll never understand the pain that the few of us go threw each day, wether it be physicle pain or mental pain its all the same to us, and we all want it to end, some call us cowards, but its just the easyt thing we can do.
some of us snap out of it before its to late, others dont, and people like me sit in confusion,unsure of what to do, we think about it and we take out the wepons needed, and yet we cant do it, we're to affraid to end own lifes that we continue untill we cant take it anymore and we finaly give in and die. i am happy for thoes that enjoy there life and the people that keep liveing no matter what.I pray they never take a turn for the worse like i did, because there is no pain..like the pain i feel.no matter how much you say you know what its like to feel this way..there is no possible way that you could ever feel the same pain i do, no matter how much you say im lieing..because im smileing and laughing, then you dont understand, just because im like this..dosent mean i dont have a smile to plaster on my face when needed..sometimes i laugh..sometimes im mad, other times im sad, alot of the times..like now..im nothing, no feeling, no hope,no reason to be here at all, just here because i dont want to see my mother cry,because i dont want to cause here anymore pain than i alreddy have..everything thats happend to us..its my fault, i always new that if i wasnt here..none of this would have happend, so evan if your like this, ask yourself this fist,
1have you ever tryd to kill yourself?
2do you know its your fault?
3do you ever sit and think they'd all be better of if i wasnt around?
if you've awnser no to any of these..your not like us
 Yudoichi · Thu Jul 26, 2007 @ 01:29am · 0 Comments |
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