♥-♥-♥
&& IF THERE IS NO LIGHT TO SPARE
I SHALL LOVE HIM AT THE SPEED OF DARK
.... that I'm not being emo.
but, why am I so vulnerable?
&& why am I always afraid?
I can't even be myself around the ones I love.
it's not because we're not really friends - it's because I'm petrified at the thought there might be something about me they might not like.
I'm afraid of so much, && I can't explain my fears or everyone is going to try to reassure me && tell me it's all right when it's not.
I don't know why it's so easy to hurt me, why I take offense when I should be strong.
why I'm so weak.
....
I do anything for anyone. I'd die for the person who was just trying to kill me, because I'd hate knowing I let somebody die on my own will.
I'm so afraid of everything. of everything but loss. for some reason, I could lose almost anything (not everything, like at the same time, no, but anything) && not mourn for long. I think. gosh, it's hard being so vulnerable. I think I don't like change.
I also don't like being so unsure. I just want it all to be over soon.
that's not a suicidal threat. don't take it that way.
I'm too forgiving, I'm too gullible, I'm too....too....
....
I don't know. I don't know what I'm trying to say. I just hope somebody can understand this jumble.... u-u;
I hope somebody hears this cry, if they can understand it.
I hope somebody knows what it all means, what we all go on for.
I do so hope to meet this somebody someday.
I do so wish I knew this all myself.
maybe someday I might know what I want.
&& IF THERE IS NO LIGHT TO SPARE
I SHALL LOVE HIM AT THE SPEED OF DARK
.... that I'm not being emo.
but, why am I so vulnerable?
&& why am I always afraid?
I can't even be myself around the ones I love.
it's not because we're not really friends - it's because I'm petrified at the thought there might be something about me they might not like.
I'm afraid of so much, && I can't explain my fears or everyone is going to try to reassure me && tell me it's all right when it's not.
I don't know why it's so easy to hurt me, why I take offense when I should be strong.
why I'm so weak.
....
I do anything for anyone. I'd die for the person who was just trying to kill me, because I'd hate knowing I let somebody die on my own will.
I'm so afraid of everything. of everything but loss. for some reason, I could lose almost anything (not everything, like at the same time, no, but anything) && not mourn for long. I think. gosh, it's hard being so vulnerable. I think I don't like change.
I also don't like being so unsure. I just want it all to be over soon.
that's not a suicidal threat. don't take it that way.
I'm too forgiving, I'm too gullible, I'm too....too....
....
I don't know. I don't know what I'm trying to say. I just hope somebody can understand this jumble.... u-u;
I hope somebody hears this cry, if they can understand it.
I hope somebody knows what it all means, what we all go on for.
I do so hope to meet this somebody someday.
I do so wish I knew this all myself.
maybe someday I might know what I want.
