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It's really strage to look at how much a Dads opinion presides over a girl's life...

Last night, I went to a father-daughter dance with my Dad. I spent the whole night talking to him, cause, since I'm sick, I couldn't dance very much...We talked about school, about the guy I love, drama, and politics...

I didn't want to be finished talking when the dance was over, so I suggested that we order appetizers and drinks at the local Mexican Cantina. He agreed, and off we went...

After he called my stepmother, and I called my sister, we sat there for an hour, talking...Somehow, the conversation switched from general stuff to my life...anyone who knows me very well knows that my relationship with my father is poor...so, I took my "twin's" advice and decided to talk to my Dad about how he makes me feel...How I feel like I am never good enough for him, how I feel like he doesn't think I can be President, like I want to be...he told be that he does think I can do whatever I want to, that he just thinks I am wrong about what I think I want to do. He said my moral values are too strong to be blurred by politics, and that I wouldn't like being a politician very much. But, that wasn't the best part...

For the first time in my entire life, my Father told me that he knew I was going to be something great...

This may sound ridiculous, but I feel like I could conquer the world right now...I have dealt with self-esteem issues my entire life, all because my Dad has never told me, honestly, that he thinks I am extrordinary...he finally told me last night, and my confidence has soared...

I am now fixed...I have been a broken, incomplete person, missing fragments here and there...Throughout this past year, with the help of my friends, I have managed to pick up and replace some of these pieces...

The Lord knows I am far from being entirely complete...I, truly, am a child, when it comes to maturing and growing and living...but, for who I am, I have only been missing one piece...that confidence, that feeling, that comes from a Father's acceptance...

I now have that acceptance, and I feel more complete than I ever have, because, for the first time in my life...

I can truly accept myself...