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Stone by Stone

I have a wall u cannot see
because it's deep inside of me.
it blocks my heart on every side
and helps emotions there to hide.
you can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
you wonder what it's all about


The wall I build that u can't see
results from insecurity.
each time my tender heart was hurt
the scars withing grew worse and worse.
so stone by stone,
I built a wall
that's now so thick it will not fall.


please understand that it's not u-
continue trying to break through.
and love from u will really help.


so bit by bit,
chip at my wall,
till stone by stone it starts to fall.


I know the process will be slow-
it's never easy to let go
of hurts and failures long ingrained,
upon ones heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid
to let you in;
I know I might get hurt again.


I try so hard to break the wall,
but seem to get nowhere at all.
for stone upon each stone I've stacked,
and left between them not a crack.
the only way to make it fall is imperfections in the wall.


I did the best I could to build
a perfect wall, but there are still
a few small flaws, which are the key
to breaking through the wall to me.
please use each flaw
to cause a crack
to knock a stone of off the stack.


for just as stone by stone was laid
with every hurt and every pain,
so stone by stone the wall will break
as love replaces every ache
please be the one
who cares enough
to find the flaws, no matter what.


In hope that someday
you will break
this wall and set me free
to smile again