GRAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! This is getting unbelievable! I'm in such a creative rut right now! I can't draw anything or write anything! It's as if my creativity, that I know is in my brain somewhere, has suddenly decided that I suck and that it needs a vacation. I have lots of energy though, only problem is is that all my energy is backed up and I don't know how to get rid of it.
I'm so restless, I can't sit still and do anything for more then 20 minutes at a time. I'm so tired! I just want to close my eyes and only open them again when something interesting has happened.
I think the boringness of this town has driven me to insanity! (Seriously, normal people don't hear voices like I do in their heads) I'm bored and tired beyond the point of simple restlessness. It could lead to recklessness......
I need a distraction, school won't work. This is why I love role playing so much, it lets me escape from my life (that leaves nothing to the imagination) I'm desperate to role play right now (I've even figured out how to make rps look really pretty) but because of the lack of creativity I can't make good profiles/role plays/posts. I wish one of the rps I'm already in would pick up but all of them are in dead mode.
I need a solution to the restlessness, I think it's affecting my sleep too. Or maybe I can't sleep for all the normal reasons. (Constant nightmares, irrational fear of the movie saw, even though I've never seen it) I hope I'm not fallowing my brother's sleep pattern. Is it just my fate to end up never being able to sleep? I mean, some times he gets only like 5 hours of sleep then goes to school, sometimes he doesn't sleep at all.
Isn't it kinda sad that the only way I can rid myself of my creative energy is by writing about the fact that I have nothing to do with my creative energy? I seem like such a normal person on the outside.
Schizophrenic Lunchbox Community Member 
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