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I want to ask you guys one question.
Something that has bothered me since....um...two weeks ago I belive.
That happened to me one night that I just crashed with my emotions.

Have you guys ever gone through old things from the past, the past you sometimes wish to forget but not really?
Have you ever read ofr seen a picture that struck your half broken heart so bad...you just broke down and everything crashed?

And from those words have you just gone out in tears and cry your feelings out, crying out all the tears you forced in for the longest time.
Finally letting all the pain release from inside.
And you tried to stop your crying, wiping away or rubbing, more and more has just come out to replace it?

And from that you just shoved the picture away or slammed the book shut and threw it away from you, falling on your bed or floor and just letting your tears take you over, giving up and just cry.
Cry and cry?

Have you just thought up more of the past, thinking of the things you lost and the reason in how you lost and what you would do anything to just change it?
To just go back in time?
And just think in how much better it would have been, if it have never happened.
Being able to do, what you couldn't do right now.
Just thinking and crying over what you lost.

Have you ever done something like that?
Have ya?

I have.
I have done all of those things.
I have gone through old memories and just cry a waterfall over the things I have lost and how much I would do to just reverse time and change.
And let me tell you, its hell.

See ya,
Captain Noya [feelings all gone]