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Well, first off: MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Hahaha! It's nice to be back on the PC, ya? Well, I hope that everyone has had a Merry Christmas so far. :3 And a Happy Hanaka, (is that how it's spelled? D: ) or whatever it is that you're celebrating.
I'm currently in New Jersey right now. ^^ Truthfully, it ain't my cup o' tea, but whatever. xP It's good to be here.
Monday:
Monday was our travel day. I had to get up at around three in the morning or so and get ready. So we left and I didn't sleep until we got to the airplane. Everything went smoothly for the most part, 'cept for when my brother was delaaaaaaayed as he took his damn lovely time with his girlfriend before he went off through the security check. It was stupid. We waited ten minutes for him, left him to go on to our gate, and he took another thirty to forty minutes. Now, I don't give a damn who he's talking to. If he can take two seconds saying bye to me or anyone else in his family, he can do it to his stupid girlfriend. (Sorry for saying that, his girlfriend is nice. He's just a ********. (: ) Moron of a brother is ALWAYS with her. He's hardly ever at home. He says he does work where he's staying... ha. Yeah. RIGHT. Nice big steaming load of crap that is. Anyway, we got to New Jersey at around two o'clock in the afternoon that time. We had only two flights, neither of which were delayed. We were actually pretty early. xD I must have looked like quite something when going through the airport and on the plane. I was wearing my purple bathrobe, my mom's red coat, had an FMA pillow, my giant FMA purse, and an Edward Elric blanket. (I'm not TOTALLY obsessed with FMA, it's just that that's really all that I can find in the stores....) So I was lugging that mess around... I was quite the sight, I bet. xD Awesome. So we stopped by my other sister's work and then went to my sister's home where I was prompty greeted by my two nephews and my niece. We then immediately went off to a church service (stopping at a house to get changed into some more appealing clothes) that was... really nice. I like my church, I really do, but... the services are... boring. There's too much information and I leave being like... 'what was the message supposed to be...?' I miss leaving church and having a nice, loving, or thoughtful feeling inside. I haven't had that in a while lately. It was really good to have a change. I love my church, I really do, but those services are boring! D: Then we went home, and then we went to bed.
Tuesday:
Yesterday I woke up at around five A.M. thanks to the children. And... GIFTS. The children had so many gifts it was sickening. |: They kept on unwrapping them, but there were still so many. Those are some thoroughly well-spoiled children. Even my mom said that the amount of gifts was ridiculous. After a too-long gift opening we headed off to my brother-in-law's uncle's house. We spent most of the afternoon chatting and watching the kids open MORE gifts. Then we got to have a REALLY good dinner at around five. I didn't get to enjoy it last year because I'd ended up getting the flu. Sooo, I wasn't able to have any of that delicious food before. It wasn't as good as Fuzen's cooking (or her mother's. I want to kidnap her, btw. THE FOOD.) But it was pretty darn deleeecious. After that we went home. Altogether the day was pretty good, but... I dunno. It just didn't feel like... Christmas to me. I haven't felt like 'Christmas' in several years, pretty much. Sad, because I used to look forward to Christmas so much. Next year I plan to make the best out of Christmas... the most that I possibly can. Not for me- for others. That's where the real joy is, I think. I came to an epiphany sometime this week that the real meaning of Christmas is sacrifice. We celebrate Jesus' birthday, yes, but why do we give gifts? "For giving." Yes, for giving, but for what purpose? It's to sacrifice what you have in order to give what you have to someone else. In the same way that Jesus did. He gave himself up, and God gave his son up, for us. Jesus gave himself to us. And so, in the same way, we give gifts to someone else. I think that it should be done in the same way. We're so wrapped up in the idea of presents that we forget the meaning of Christmas. And I don't... yeah, part of it is believing. But isn't the main theme of Christmas giving? Sacrifice? If not, then WHY do we give presents away? It's not about Santa giving things away. All that Santa is is the memory of a man who give children presents AND as a company advertisement to get people to buy their children more toys. D: So, my New Year's Resolution is to begin my book AND to get people gifts out of... well, my heart. Not just because I have to. Because I want to give them something that will make them smile.
Wednesday:
Today was good and lazy. I just finished watching Amazing Grace with my brother and my mom. (Comcast, betch. Good movies. :3) We may watch the Nativity (Netivity? DDD: ) Story next. Either that or I'm going to go out and see I Am Legend with my sister- it'd be my second time, but hell. Will Smith is a good actor and that was a good movie. But like I said... good and lazy. (And the children opened MORE gifts this morning.)
Tomorrow my brother and I will be heading to Philadelphia. We'll hit the museums the day after, and then the day after that we're going to New York. I hate New York. It's cold, it's filthy, and it's big. But I can appreciate NYC. There's tons to appreciate! I just hate big cities. But I like Philly for some reason. Not sure why....
And I just hate children. I love my niece and nephews, but I hate children. People call children innocent. Which they are. But you know what came to me? Children are selfish. SEEELFIIIIIIIIIIISH. SELFISH. All that they care about is what they want. You have to teach a kid to be kind. You have to teach them manners. Children are the true, virgin form of a human. Selfish. Sure they look cute, but they're selfish. It came to me how selfish they are as my little runts opened their gifts. So many things, and it was just... it almost made me sick. Children are selfish, they aren't born sweet. You have to MAKE them sweet. And when I think about it, when people act nasty or do anything wrong, it's for selfish reasons, isn't it? It's ultimately because they want something for themselves that maybe they want or they can't have. So in the beginning, children may be innocent, but they are still the rawest form of human you can possibly have. Human nature all comes down to one thing: Selfishness. You have to teach someone how not to be selfish, they don't just pop out that way. Children are selfish. They irritate me, and they really don't care about how I feel. All that they want is to get my attention because it makes them feel better. Every single child I've met only acts the way that they do because they get something in return. Even when you're diciplining them, you do it in the form of taking something away they want. And when they act good, you give it back. Selfish, selfish. Kind of sucks to think that I used to be one....
I hate children.
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Bye. :3 Luff all of you lots.
 MythicalYoko · Wed Dec 26, 2007 @ 11:21pm · 1 Comments |
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