title says it all. i can't stop crying cause i failed my exam and i can't afford to fail another class. not to mention my goal of making my dad proud is gone and i have to take summer school. so i'm going to say ******** school and ******** my life right now. i just wanna curl up into a ball and die. i'm such a failure...i vented to evan and now i feel even worse cause i just made him feel bad. then earlier today i screwed up my mom's soup and then i woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morining. so yeah, i feel like s**t right now. i shouldn't even be writing this journal cause i know i'm just going to make others feel bad, but i need to vent as much as possible before it gets to the point where i'm self destructive.
but yeah, anyway i wrote a song with my negative feelings. maybe naoki and fruit tart will like it, but i highly doubt it cause its depressing as hell. anyway, here it is:
Death it lingers at every door
But I won't let it get the poor
Living screaming
Dying dreaming
Lift the sins above the breathing
Hearts are breaking
Painful streaks of places bleeding
Gunshots ringing
People racing
People trying
Failing miserably
try again is only failing
Falling
Dying
Trying
Failing
pre-chorus:
Life has brought its true meaning
Harship times and troubles breathing
Now my life is taking it's leaving
Leaving me behind
Chorus:
Woah, take the time
and let me shine
even if it's not my time
Life is killing
Every feeling
Time for me to fly...
People crying
Vision blurring
The world around me
Is twisting and turning
Rivers flowing
Winds are blowing
(take it all away)
blowing in the wrong direction
Run, run run
It doesn't help
No matter how far I travel
It's all going to be in vain
I can't escape
There's no hope
Blood running cold
Mind is completely gone
Am I really done?
chorus x2
Falling
Dying
Trying
Failing
Crying
Running
Decay
the feeling
longing
fleeing
flowing
blowing
Gone...
 ReikaItsumi · Fri Jan 25, 2008 @ 12:10am · 2 Comments |
