I don't know why I am feeling alone. I am not alone, I am most certainly not unloved. I have so many friends and people who just want to see me happy. And I've no reason to feel that I'm lacking something. But sometimes I think maybe all my running around the threads cheering people up is taking its toll on me. I'm not as cheerful as I was recently. Perhaps it's cause I don't want to have an uncertain future.
But my future, I know, is uncertain. Even more hard to guarantee my happiness than the average Gaian. I am not an easy person to understand, and an even harder person to accept. I certainly don't want to be alone - who does, anyway? But when I sit and stare at the empty screen, I just think, Gosh I'm alone.
How long has it been since I've felt romantically warm and all that stuff? I wish Kyo-san would be around more often. *sighs* The rain outside is NOT helping either. I think I shall go to bed or something, my stomach is causing me grief.
P.S. : Kirtt and Josef... I'm happy for you. Envious, too [you don't know how much, but happy.
AngelRaz · Tue Jul 12, 2005 @ 11:16am · 4 Comments |