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well gaia still isnt working right on this computer.... i have braces... iv had them for over a month now... and i wish they were gone... i still cant think of any good story ideas though i do have a good, long, interesting daydream every now and again.... i am running on 4 hours sleep... i went to bed at 8 am and got up just a lil after 12pm.... i have spent so much time cleaning in my room and trying to organize stuff before my grandma came over to "help"... so i was up all night going through almost every single paper in my room... i must have looked at over 1000 sheets of paper.... all because im very weird about people looking through my stuff... hell im even weird about talking to people.... well all day iv been extra cranky and very self-pitying cuz of all the cleaning iv been doing.... and its still not done.... o and its 5 am now.... hehe.... im very close to convincing the people i live with to getting me my own computer.... i just wish i knew what kind i wanted.... see recently i was complaining about it (not that i dont almost every day, but....) my mom said that she would want to make sure that i had a place to keep one before we went out looking for one and my "dad" has been saying for months that if i can "be more respectful and keep my room clean and show that...bla bla bla...." .... my response.... so what am i supposed to call you if im not calling you dumbass?.... "dad"?_? hehehehe...... so now i just call him Mr. W(dont think it wise to say any last names on the internet whether people can read it or not).... every once in a while though i purposely slip up and call him rick or dumbass and if he notices i quickly say o come on you know i was joking.... hehehhe.... so anyways.... my room is pretty close to done so i said to my "mom" well i have the space now, so when are we gonna go get one?_?.... she asks what im talking about and i say a computer remember?_? the funny thing is i had said somtin to her just seconds before about a computer and she didnt put the two together.... hehehe humans are pretty stupid..... o did i mention my math teacher died?_? i was thinkin about that recently and it suddenly occurred to me.... all year i hated her... i just wanted her out of my life.... well when she finally is completely clear of me, she decides she gonna up and die just so that i wont forget that she existed.....
anyways on a cheerier note, today i was so extrememely tired and slap happy a few times i thought ... o crap cant laugh must suppress the urge.... not wise to make noises might get caught still up..... omg i watched some movie with patrick swazey in it(cant spell the doofusses name) it was meant to be serious so i sat there talking back to the tv , cheering for the lady to punch the guys in the nose and stuff.... but when swazey picked up the bucket of balls.... wow i thought i would just die(my mind was in the gutter... actually the gutter is too clean to describe my mind today) o and swazey was on crutches and teachin some kid to play baseball... so he says heres my crutch ball.... say it and you just might get the first thing that came to my mind... ahh what the hell..... i thought crotch ball.... hahahahaha i was sure i was gonna die my stomache was about to implode, i couldnt breathe except for an accassional loud burst of laughter followed by a quick gasp of air and more silent, airless, laughing..... i laughed all day cuz my mind got stuck on that......
ok...... well iv been making loads of clothes for gaia characters.... but if i cant get gaia to work right.... im not gonna be on much...... so im not gonna bother trying to make a store or earn money.... cuz well.... i cant spend money and gaia is only fun when ... well.... there arent red x's everywhere..... i saw something recently saying that if a mac user is having trouble, they should get internet explorer 6, i cant find a download of it and my older "bro" says that this computers too outdated for it anyway.....
but i been doing all kinds of cool outfits and stuff....
why am i up now.... im so tired.... right!! cuz around 2 or so, when i was finally ready to go to bed, i started to feel kind bla, bleh, and *sigh* .... bored, depressed, and sortof apathetic(i was sad without reason, but not to the point where i could come up with a good story... actually i couldnt think of any story.....im brain dead, 4 hours a sleep 'll do that to ya... ya know?_?)
i havent even had any interesting dreams recently to help me get a story going.... i sat down today ready to start drawing a comic.... no ideas what to draw, couldnt draw worth crap, couldnt think of how stories should go, start, or anything ..... so i gave up and started wishing i were with this one guy whose like my idle.... OMG i love the 2 drawings hes done for me... now dont mistake what iv said for anything more than admiration.... though i think i love one guy that he drew years ago..... *sigh**i just got shivers* * and it just happened again.... i love it when this guy is in town.... iv seen him 2 time this year... he joined the marines a while back..... and before that i hadnt seen him for a while anyways cuz hes my "bros" friend and my "bro" sucks a**.... wait i shouldnt say that .... if he were to ever find out, then what little chance i have of getting on his computer is shot to hell!! o right dreams... i had a short dream recently ... more of a night mare... not the good, entertaining, scare you to death so you know your alive kind, the kind where.... "this sucks... what a waste of empty space" i was standing looking at my "mom" and i turned just as i heard my "grandma" say something like what she always says ... something like i brought these over here for you, go ahead and take a look at them, i dont know if you prefer one over the other or if you want both, but anyways here you are.... ok well i havent told you what she was holding to you might have started to think bad thoughts.... i think i cleaned the cat box that day or was planning to do it the next... o right i did it later after i woke up from that dream and whatever.... she was holdind a plastic bag in one hand and a brown paper bag in the other.... they were probably from a grocery store of something.... o and today ..... now the bag thing is not a big stretch from the way she really is.... she said something like..... i have some blue bags we can use in your trash cans if you think its anything youd be interested in.... and then she rambled on.... i dont member if she said she bought them or saved them up..... (i rarely actually listen to every word.... after a while you just stare and look interested and listen to the tone of voice to make sure she doesnt ask a question.... if she does you can usually just get away with a nod and an uh- huh or sure yeah that sounds good.... mmm...hmmm.... yup sure..... hehehe..... i did that one time while trying to watch a movie...i think she was telling me something about..... hmmm.... thats odd.... cant remember........ o well..... not like it mattered.....
as you can see im making this long... cuz i cant sleep even though im exhausted, and im bored..... and whatever the hell else..... but i grow weary now..... iv been delusional for years now..... but today was pretty bad.... hehehe.... i saw all sortsa things.... o and while up in my room last night i thought i heard my cat meow(he likes to go outside so much that hell beg.... he doesnt even beg that much for food but damn that cat loves outside) eep scared myself anyways.... i ran all the way downstairs to find him lying under a table... quietly..... my "mom" had been right there and hadnt heard a thing....
well.... im tired, my hands are tired...... i need sleep.... i think my "grandma" will be over later to "help" some more...(more like do all the work)....ahh crap i still hafta brush my teeth from the food i ate a few hours ago.... and i should probably refloss......
well i g2g.... cyall( wow i must be extra delerious... cyall?_? what the hell am i thinking?_?... o wait thats right im braindead... oops started to type bread instead of braindead and that all rhymes....) well good night all(or good morning to those of you that are up around 5 or 6 am....)
night night....
Unni Ineo · Sun Jul 31, 2005 @ 10:44am · 1 Comments |
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