I feel like s**t. My brain has been working too hard and there is not a lot of things I can say 'cause I don't want certain eyes to see this. But I feel like s**t. With all I have [which isn't much] I'm not happy at all and now I know.. that people do depend on me and I'm not going to be there.. and that I depend on my family.. more then anything.. and they won't be there.. in the next year everything is going to change.. today everything changed.. for the worse.. I wish I never did something.. I wish I didn't think the way I do.. so many emotions mixed up! One minute I'm happy the next I'm bawling and I can't let "them" see my tears.. I wish my mom was here! I wish I had another job. I wish I applied myself.. i'm nothing at this very moment.. and it's the truth.. with everything I want to do..and I do nothing.. why am I the way I am? Why do I feel forsaken..
Pray for me.. cause my tears hurt right now and there are no words that can explain the pain.
Premonitions are evil!
Stakie Heart · Tue Aug 09, 2005 @ 02:15am · 1 Comments |