ok where to begin.... only about 3 or 4 more parts to the persons story to read now, its late, im bored, and no one is here to talk (i cant be lonely can i?_? i love to be alone... but.... i prefer if its of my own choice, not cuz i hafta be)
i still want story ideas... but no one can give me a good one....
"Ok, why am I (ie Victoria) like this? Why if I do not do everything say in one of my routines exactly the way it shoul dbe, do I feel something bad will happen? Ok and you know what I mean, so that basically. So, am I prisoner to myself? Or what? " ^ |
that is the question which i must answer for v.... so where to begin?_?
lets see... perhaps it has to do with some condition you have with yourself... or maybe it has to do with the way you were raised.... maybe being in a constantly clean, healthy, happy environment where people encourage you to be yourself as well as someone who is what they want you to be... no parent wants their child to be mean... or dumb... or messy... or lazy.... they want you to be nice... or perhaps your parents dont put much pressure on you so you are your own strict parent who will except nothing lower than perfect.... in a way, you are unconciously rebelling against your parents ways... they accept your best as being whatever your best is, so you dont, only perfect will do... so, i think its mainly in parenting and the way you are raised.... it seems to me like you have some kind of anthill complex where your stuck doing things exactly how your supposed to or you might get squished by something much bigger than you that you dont have anything close to the slightest idea about....
well that only took a few short minutes.... so what do i think about now?_? stare stare cry cry crying crying stare stare
of course all of this is just my rambling on...
Unni Ineo · Tue Aug 16, 2005 @ 04:56am · 2 Comments |