- I miss both of them so much
stare - Some people called them self my friend but it's all on big lie
gonk - I can't belive him why would you lie about something like that
scream - you stupid c**k sucking mother ******** filthy lier!
stressed - I haven't sleept in two days and I'm not tired at all
heart - I love him with all of my heart if only he knew
eek - How the ******** can you do that to me???
emo - The emotional scars will stay with me forever.
First I was bored so I made a list of things I wish my guy would do:
1. Hug me more
2. Don't be embaressed of me
3. Stand up for me
4. Kiss away my tears
5. Call me
6. Care more
7. Kiss me in the rain
8. Tell me how you feel
9. Hold my hand
10. Hold me when I'm scared
11. Be there for me when I need it
12. Tell me all of your secrets and I'll tell you mine
13. Tell me you love me and mean it
14. Tell me the truth even if it hurts
15. Comlement me on simple things
16. Kiss away my pain
17. Be sensitive
18. Don't be a total a**
19. Listen to me and never forget
20. Take me places
21.Enjoy the scilence
22. Be able to have fun while watching a movie at your house
23. Don't ignore me
24. Miss me when I'm not there
25. Enjoy me when I'm there
26. Write me a love letter
27. Believe me when I say "I love you" because I mean it, always
28. Make me smile when I don't want to
29. Be my reason to live
30. Lay with me under the stars
How I wish these could be true
Caleb left for a month without saying goodbye *sigh* I really wish he'd fallow the list I made. Now I'm lonely *sigh*
I still miss that one guy with all of my heart. I feel like a part of me is missing because he's gone. I miss the electrical feel when our arms brushed. I miss the way he ACTUALLY cared. I miss every little detail about him. I never really apreciated him until it was too late.
I feel as if I'm hated by all of my friends, and I don't know why. It's as if we drifted apart. I'm now used to spending days at a time locked up in my room in the dark. It seems darkness is my only true friend because it's alway there for me, to hide the tears, to mask me.
I'm telling the truth I'm not guilt traping you. I'm not lieing. I feel so aweful this b*****d that I loved said he loved me. I believed him and he violated me on more than one accasion. I feel like a slut for letting him do it. I feel like a dirty whore. I wish I could go back in time and stop it. Once he got what he wanted, not my verginity, he left. he stopped talking to me. he said he still loved me, it was all a lie. i'm suprised i even trust Caleb anymore. I'm so afraid of guys now. I hate the looks. I hate it all, and im discusted with myself for letting my self be treated that way. I feel so dirty and no matter how much I try I can't get rid of that feeling. Without even breaking up with me he gets a new girlfriend. I feel so used. Like im a tramp and i'm just there to be used.
I hate that feeling so much.
Well if you have any more questions then just pm me all of my friends get one question and one true awnser. So pm me and ask me whatever you'd like.
Heres some comonly asked questions
Q-Are you okay?
A-No I'll never be okay
Q- Do you cut yourself?
A- No the emotional pain is enough
Q-Who's the guy you like?
A- you'll never know it doesn't matter anyways he left *cries*
Q-What's wrong?
A- EVERYTHING!
well thats all i can think of right now. remember pm me.
I'll tell the truth find out the real me.
Love,
Karin
