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Today, my friend Jazzy's mother calls me. I didn't get the call and then checked my voicemail.
"Hi, this is Jasmine's mother. Something happened to Jasmine and I just wanted to call you and let you know. Please call me back at this number...."
I get the message around 4pm and called her back immediately, but she didn't answer my call. All this time, my stomach has been in knots cause I know it's something serious. I'm even sure I already know what it is. I called another 2 times, about an hour or so apart until I finally get her, like 4 hours after she first called me.
My heart's beating like crazy cause I'm finally gonna get an answer to what "something" is and, I'll be damnded if I wasn't right. She killed herself today, no reason why, no warning, just did it.
And, I felt such anger, so pissed, so crazy, but iono, just ..... the breath was sucked outta me.
I didn't care for her mother cause she and her mother weren't close, but now I hate her for telling me. And not just telling me that one of my closest friends was dead, her telling me in a nonchalant way. Like, she knew it was coming soon and wasn't surprised in the least. When I asked if she was alright, this is what she said.
"No, no she's not. She's dead. She committed suicide this afternoon. I was just looking through her phone, calling everyone to let them know and also if I could get any answers as to why. Why would she do that? We gave her everything...."
It was after that last line that I stopped listening.
I don't even know what to do right now. I just....I didn't know. I thought everything was cool and s**t, and now this. I wished I talked to her more, tried to figure out what was going on, but I didn't and now we'll never know.
I swear if she wasn't already gone, I'd kill her for this.
 Post Coital Cookie · Thu Aug 21, 2008 @ 06:02am · 1 Comments |
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