What a night...what a day...
Yesterday was only a half-truth posting. See...things got quite nasty as the night went on. Some people were really giving me a hard time...and in an attempt NOT to take it out on Ryo...I did. I feel so bad about it...I hung up before even saying "I love you".......
Damnit, why am I such a screw up? I can never seem to handle things well under stress, but this time shot me down to an all-time low. I don't know what came over me...or what to do to fix things. What's wrong with me? ... i love him so much. i don't know why i was being such a b***h last night. god, i'm not usually like this. *sighs sadly* go figure...i finally meet a guy who's everything i ever wanted...and all i seem to be doing is pushing him farther away, when in reality, it's the last thing i want to happen.
Well, peace out from the screw-up.
 SonicBeauty · Fri Nov 12, 2004 @ 06:24pm · 0 Comments |
