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~*No government over her body.

I thought i could be daring.
But i was wrong.
I decided to go to Bernadine's house, and actually take my science notes and not fail. Plus, i could easily copy her homework anyways. She also brought a friend from my school, Sarah, and well she's a girl who has expereinced everything.
I mean, you can look at her, and talk to her forever. And you might not even know anything about her. She was really daring. She cursed like it was just a normal part of our language; she was perverted in any way and always wanted to have fun.
But fun to her, was like jumping off a cliff for a million dollars. She did daring things and nothing could stop her. Not even me. Bernadine, Sarah and I walked around the neighborhood, Sarah begged Bernadine to get her wallet so we could go to the cornerstore. Once Bernadine left she looked at me and said:
'Let's go.'
I couldn't ask, i had to follow. We left Bernadine by running down the road like maniacs. She ran faster and faster; i kept looking back watching the house shrink.
'Oh darn! There she is! hide!'
I wanted to go back. But when i saw Bernadine finally following i took cover and hid. I was slightly scared, she was wild outside. She was free, and no one would stop her. Free as a bird they would say.

We were taking a trip to the park, Sarah spotted a basketball in front of a persons lawn and took it. Stole it actually. I bit back and looked at the houses windows. No one saw. So i ran behind her and left Bernadine there to fidget.
When we reached the park she dropped the basketball like it was an unwanted and unneeded item for this next devious plan.
'Since Bernadine won't let me pee on a van, i'll pee on this bench.'
She wasn't kidding. I giggled. This surely wasn't the first time. I looked at a distant and she was pulling her pants down away. She sat and screamed how wet and cold the bench was. Bernadine was laughing hard; i looked away and giggled.
'What the ********]
Someone yelled. Our heads shot up but sarah was enjoying to much. She yelled who was it, Bernadine said someone was in the car.
'Yea?'
'Why are you peeing on a bench?'
Sarah replied she had to go. Then one teenage boy, probably the age of 16 or 17 came out of the car. Then three more. Wholy s**t. I said in my head. Four teenage boys were walking towards sarah, her pants were down. They weren't mad, but they were a bit druggy; they were curious.
Sarah was too calm. she was having fun. She quickly got up and pulled her pants up. She started to walk cooly to the boys.
My dad told me to run.
Bernadine just knew it was her instinct to.
But when you have an animal so wild and free crossing the road; is it smart enough to push the animal out of the cars way and get hit yourself, or just let God's will let it be?
Give me your phone.
I commanded Bernadine. She handed it to me.
'I'm scared.'
i was scared also. One boy was holding a smoking stick between his fingers. Not a cigerette, it was something weedy rolled in paper. Yea. The kid was smoking some wonderful plant. I ran away from a distant. Then held the phone where the boys could see it.
The boys walked over to the bench and looked at it. Sarah was having a nice conversation with them, and they weren't doing anything sexual. I relaxed. They were curious after all. The four boys were good looking, and Sarah liked that. I only caught interest in the blonde boy who was in the background. He didn't say much, but he was sitting on the park Table looking off.
I do love blonde boys, so that's why i looked at him. He saw me and winked.
I did blush, but the kid could be stoned and also horny. He probably has a girlfriend in highschool, and he was way to old. He was like that korean boy who walked down the hallways from my gym. I snuck around to just look at him. That's what made me happy. Then i would only guess how he lived life so perfectly.

Sarah came back, her cheeks were flushed pink. She was smiling so big, she looked so happy. Satisfied. I walked with her and listened to her and laughed.
She did everything, and i mean everything. Go ahead and think about sex. She's been there and done that. Sarah was beautiful, and so happy and the boss of everything.
Then she looked at me and told me the story on how she lost the voice. The voice in her head that stopped her from doing the bad things.
'I beat up my head till there was nothing. I did so many things, so many bad things, it was just gone the next morning. No government over my body!'
Then she started to bounce and scream.
I envied her. I wanted to be like that. But was i up for the challenge? Can i be that strong? Can i take the Sarah express. It only ment that i had to destroy my brain. Kill myself.
I had to be the devil.