*sigh* i havent felt this bad in so long . . .
i cant believe what is happening 2 me right now . . .
u would think since its almost Christmas time that i would be happier . . .
but no . . . im so sad . . .
no1 has been able 2 help me . . .
i mean ill seem happy at times . . .
but afterwords i go back 2 being more depressed than ever . . .
not even Mark . . . my best friend in the whole world can help me right now . . .
neither can my Kevy Huggly Poof . . .
or Sarah . . . or Jenny . . . or Mao . . .
y does it have 2 be this way 4 me . . .
*sigh* its getting colder now . . . and so is every1 else . . .
my heart isnt even beating normaly anymore . . .
when i have that time 2 think about it . . .
my life feels like its standing still . . .
and that is stopped at the worst time in my life . . .
this year has been 1 of the best yet worst years of my life . . .
i lost my friend 2 a disease . . . some of my other friends moved . . . im worried about the fights . . .
how am i supose 2 be happy anymore . . .
what left do i have 2 live 4? cry crying cry crying
 -x-_HuGgL3z_4-Uz · Wed Dec 17, 2008 @ 05:52am · 0 Comments |
