I still don't know how to explain this. =/ It's probably the weirdest feeling I've ever had. Like...the only way I've seen people love like this is with their boyfriend/girlfriend. But it's not like that. I'm not like that. I don't think of her like that. It's like.....I love her more than anyone else in the world....I'd do absolutely anything for her....she's basically the boss of me....and......I enjoy being close to her. But...even that....it's not like I wanna "do" her....I'm straight and that's just plain gross.Not like that at all. Plus...I'd kill anyone who tried that. It's more like....a baby cuddled up next to their mommy. Like all my problems go away when we're with each other. When she's not there because she's at her house and I'm at mine or we're not allowed to be together (like..school or MB)...I miss her but I can deal. When we have the chance to be together (we're in the same general area and we're allowed to wander....like....lunch or going to the mall as a group n'stuff.) but we're not...say...she ditched me cuz there are "cooler" people. It's like...err.....don't know how to explain this. It's kinda as if someone took my soul and..it's not gone...but I feel deprived cuz I don't have it at the moment. (wow that came out so weird...)And...when we're actually together...that's the only time I'm ever truly happy.... I probably sound like a total weirdo. Words don't work. When I try to use words I just sound like some creepy lesbian rapist. xD I wish there were some way to show you. =/ w/e I give up at life....
 Geek_lady_42 · Mon Dec 22, 2008 @ 03:29am · 0 Comments |
