i'm always so depressed. no one understands me. it almost seems like that i am a whole different species. i know difficult to understand. i always picture myself all bloody and dead. its scary and cool at the same time. i bet in the future i'll be a, well, just plain crazy. i always want to kill myself. STUPID DAMN PEOPLE! they think that they're helping me but, they just don't realize that they arn't. i'm starting to lose control over myself. its like theres a demon inside of me. no one can help me at this rate. my old self is dead. the new me is taking control. the reason y my old self was crying all the time was because i was hurting plus i was being killed. one day i'll show everyone that i can't be happy and show that i truely exsist and that i have feelings too. my old self is trying to come out but, the new me is killing the old me. its painful. I'M NOT MYSELF ANYMORE!!! *screams* *cries hard* i need somebody to help me, somebody that i can talk to, and somebody who cares. nobody knows how much pain that i am in. i wish that there is someone that knew what pain feels like. i always get picked on. i need serious help. i've already been to 3 hospitals. that don't help one bit. i want to kill myself so badly. i've got gifts from god that i love. i've got musical talent, i'm artistic, and everyone says that i'm smart. i got a paper yesterday that said my reading level was in the 8 grade at the 5th month. thats bullshit!
iPuffs Mistake · Fri Jan 09, 2009 @ 01:15am · 0 Comments |