The Relic of a Tormented Heart
I live, unbounded, unscathed.
I live without fear and without hate.
I am amidst my own mediocrity,
Such things cannot change.
However, I grieve and mourn.
Something I have lost, but yet,
I have never gained it.
Nor will I ever.
Love, such barbaric pain.
From such sensitive feeling,
I tried to realize what it meant to love,
To cherish and to give it, as well as receive it.
But, love for me, is a one-way street,
Upon by which I walk alone, saddened,
By my feeble unrealized existence,
The road you walk on, you don’t wish for me to tread.
My existence to you is just that,
Only existence.
Your unwillingness to love,
Hurts only me.
I tried to hate you,
But that depressed me further,
As I am incapable of such feeling.
So instead, I grew to love you more.
Here I am,
Trying a little more than before,
Yet I still drown in superficiality.
By you I was rendered nothing.
You sit there,
Yet you don’t realize my deepest feeling.
You consider yourself a friend,
Yet you don’t realize how much you hurt me.
I searched your face,
Hoping for once sincere hug,
One true kiss, but they never came.
Oh if only you would love me.
Time will pass.
You will meet and love many men.
They will say “I love you”,
But, they will never love you as much as I.
You may deny me, hate me, detest me
But know this you must.
I love you and I want to see you happy,
No matter whom you are with.
I live, unbounded, unscathed.
I live without fear and without hate.
I am amidst my own mediocrity,
Such things cannot change.
However, I grieve and mourn.
Something I have lost, but yet,
I have never gained it.
Nor will I ever.
Love, such barbaric pain.
From such sensitive feeling,
I tried to realize what it meant to love,
To cherish and to give it, as well as receive it.
But, love for me, is a one-way street,
Upon by which I walk alone, saddened,
By my feeble unrealized existence,
The road you walk on, you don’t wish for me to tread.
My existence to you is just that,
Only existence.
Your unwillingness to love,
Hurts only me.
I tried to hate you,
But that depressed me further,
As I am incapable of such feeling.
So instead, I grew to love you more.
Here I am,
Trying a little more than before,
Yet I still drown in superficiality.
By you I was rendered nothing.
You sit there,
Yet you don’t realize my deepest feeling.
You consider yourself a friend,
Yet you don’t realize how much you hurt me.
I searched your face,
Hoping for once sincere hug,
One true kiss, but they never came.
Oh if only you would love me.
Time will pass.
You will meet and love many men.
They will say “I love you”,
But, they will never love you as much as I.
You may deny me, hate me, detest me
But know this you must.
I love you and I want to see you happy,
No matter whom you are with.