my dad was in jail out now--hes a child predator
we are poor struggling with money
I'm expelled--finally going back--that's good!
I have no friends--I'm sure I'll make some soon
No support system--but I'm trying to build one
I want to cut myself
I hate myself, I think I'm ugly
I think I'm fat--I'm 5' 6'' and weigh 117,
I was molested by my older sister mom doesn't believe me,
recently she confronted my sister and my sister denied it
my sister constantly make fun of me and tells me I'm horrible and deserve to
be punished for trying to kill myself, she constantly harrases me
I tell her to leave me alone if she continues I curse at her, I get in trouble
now I'm trying ignoring her--it's not easy though
I have Marfans Syndrome (gentic disorder that affects the connective
tissue--and pretty much all of my body!)
I have heart issues because of marfans
I had a spinal fusion and I can't stand or sit for long
periods of time or do much physical activities
my eye sight sucks but whatever
I have a hip protrusion which causes my ribs to go
sideways and sometimes causes me to limp if I walk too much
my mom blames everything on me
I reach out for help and talk rationally and calmly
and she freaks out and pushes me away
I realized I can't rely on anyone not even my boyfriend
my mom tells me to go ahead and kill myself
I feel like a burden
I have a lot of emotional problems
and I can't control my emotions or even handle them
I want to die
 Aya-wanwan · Tue Jan 20, 2009 @ 10:12pm · 0 Comments |
