i dont know what to do anymore. everyone seems to just ignoring me an d hating me. i kno i can be a hard person to live with but. this is too far. my mother is chewing me out for every little thng i do. im a strong girl. usually i can take this kind of abuse. the yelling hte screamin. the crying. even the threats. but 5 years? no. i was finally broken. i broke down crying. all of my friends are worried. and every minute i spend thinking about it. the more my thoughts lean more towards suicide. my mom doesnt even realize whats shes doing. what her actions, looks and remarks are doing to me! its not my fault that she didnt want to do college 25 years ago! not my fault that she decides to go back to school right when money is tight and her family needs her most! my brother! my poor brother. he only sees my mother about 2-3 hours a day!!! about 30 minutes before she leaves for school and about 2 hours when she gets home!! the other day when my dog was put down on saturday, my father told my brother to come say goodbye to rio and when he was done, (my mother and i were standing next to each other) he comes running towards us, and my mom opens her arms, ready for my brother to come to here, and he runs towards me. me! me! for comfort!! and said that rio was gonna die. my mom looked really confused and then glared pure hell at me and walked away crying. thats just pathetic. a 15 year old girl is more of a mother to her younger brotherthan the real mother is. i dont even like my brother!! im not dealing with this anymore!! EVR!
randomexican · Mon Feb 02, 2009 @ 09:59pm · 0 Comments |