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im really tired.... and its only 10:22 pm on saturday.... this past week has kinda sucked.... the only day i was home before 4 was friday.... and most days i didnt get home till 5 or later.... cuz i had to work on the art project i really didnt want to do.... plus iv kinda pulled myself away from my comp since i had it taken away.... and i seriously didnt give a ******** that i couldnt get on either.... not that i had time to most of the week.... i havent listened to any of my music ..... theres never anything to do on gaia anymore....
today, i went to dinner with mel mel and her mom, her sis, and her friend tara at the chinese buffet.... twas ok.... and after it was kinda boring.... and yeah.... that was about 6 hours ago..... (i just got home) .... what was my point?.... o right {hoping mel mel dont read this ninja }.... im kinda worried that her dad has bought her.... (her parents are in the process of getting a divorce) .... her dad got her a cell phone and has been buying stuff for her and her sis non-stop since he was kicked out of the house.... and yet he has no money for child support and he cant work cuz he is "injured" .... but not enough to keep him from bowling..... and her mom was talking about it all with my "mom" and telling about him getting her in trouble at her job and all sorts of stuff and how she wants mel mel and her sis and bro to all go live with him because ... how did she put it? i dun remember but its something like him being mr. wonderful or something.... (o mel mel's mom is really in trouble with money and other stuff..... they are going to hafta move and stuff cuz they cant afford to live in their house, let alone try to repair any damages on it from arguments/fights and stuff) and me and mel mel were listening to it all and im standing there thinking omg this really sucks her dad is such a selfish, whiney a*****e..... and all mel mel could say was "this is what makes me mad" "she makes me mad" and "she is telling lies" .... and i know its not lies.... i feel like her dad has successfully bought his way back into her heart.... i mean, its like all those years where he would make her sit on the couch for days at a time, only allowed to get up to go to the bathroom, and all those violent fights he had with her mom and all the s**t hes done has magically gone away and now hes a wonderful person..... (sure, he wasnt really a huge a*****e all the time, but when he was mad or decided he was gonna be one, he was one..... ) yeah, sure he is, he's ******** sucking up to his two daughters (not his son since his son is too young to be bought and too young to fully understand whats going on and hold a grudge and make the decision not to go with him)and he has changed in appearance and stuff.... but mainly anything not superficial seems to just be a change to suck up.... in short, mel mel has gone from agreeing with her mom and trying to defend her .... to being selfish and defending her dad and its completely destroyed the relationshipe between her and her mom..... and created something that was never there.... a good relationship with her dad..... why? because he can afford to suck up to her and spoil her.... if you saw mel mel, you would think RICH, SPOILED PREP.... if you look at her mom.... you would see an overstressed woman who can hardly afford to good clothes, let alone afford to own even half of what mel mel has.....
OF COURSE THIS RANT HAS ALL BEEN MY OPINION AND I DONT KNOW EVERYTHING SO ALL THAT I HAVE SAID COULD BE WRONG, BUT RIGHT NOW, WITH THE EVIDENCE PUT BEFORE ME, ID HAFTA DOUBT THAT IT WOULD BE WRONG..... anyways, just had to get that all offa my chest.... though i still dont feel any better about it.... i mean, how would you feel if the person who you are closest to in the world, who although both you and they have changed to such a point that it seems like the only connection is your history you still feel like sisters, suddenly seemed to be allowing herself to be bought? its really an upsetting thought....
....well, in case mel mel did actually read this entry, im sorry, please dont be mad, i hope you read the whole thing so that you could understand why i feel the way i do.... but know that i do mean every word of it..... and to anyone else that reads this.... SORRY YOU HAD TO READ IT ..... yar.... um.... dunno what else to say.... its now 10:48 and i amd done with this entry cuz i have run out of thoughts...... good-night all heart heart
Unni Ineo · Sun Nov 20, 2005 @ 03:49am · 3 Comments |
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