I decided that I am tired of lying. This journal entry will probably sound like me whining or something lame, but I dont care what you think. I just need to get my feelings out.
I am tired of being alone. I hate not having friends that I can easily talk to or visit. I hate feeling like no one cares about me. I want someone that cares about me more than a family member, like a boyfriend or something. Because of all these things I tend to cry at night, and only like 3 people know. Not even my own sister that I live with knows. Lately I feel like just being a lazy person and not doing anything, not looking for a job, not wanting to go to classes. I want to tell all this to someone but I feel that if I do tell someone that they will think I am lame or stupid, or just being a whiny b***h about life. And I hate that I am shy. Because that is one reason why I feel like I cant tell anyone. I'm not gonna say that I am really depressed because I dont really have anything to be depressed about.... I just suck....
And another thing that sucks is that I know most likely only one person will read this....
 DevilsDeathChild · Fri Nov 25, 2005 @ 11:16am · 10 Comments |
