Okay, maybe I tend to think too much at night. But I was just sitting here and thinking about myself, who I am... when I realised, I don't know myself. I don't know what I want... it's kinda strange, really, after 15 years. But... I realised that... at times, my mind can tell me to do things that I would never have thought of. At times, my heart can pull me in directions which previously would've been out of bounds for me.
And it's... really strange. I don't know myself. Okay, I'm repeating it... but... Sometimes I just want to get to know, get to understand my heart and mind. Because it would be so much easier to head down paths in life. WHAT do I want in life? What do I want in Gaia? What? I mean... a six-figure amount of gold isn't anything if I don't know what I want to do with it. ...and don't beg. >.<
Please... will someone help me find out what is it I'm looking for? Anyone?
P.S. Apparently the sensitivity that has been plaguing me for the longest time is called "empathy". >.< It's something... that... makes me feel feelings that aren't mine, from people or particular surroundings. Not a sickness, hopefully. >.>
AngelRaz · Fri Nov 25, 2005 @ 02:41pm · 3 Comments |