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i need a good daydream like a death-row inmate whos been inprison for half his life needs a good long hard ******** >.0 stare gonk ..... ok, well it feels like its been forever since iv had a really good story idea (or the time to think up and dream about one) that i could just lie around for days on end thinking about..... it feels like all i ever do anymore is the same old rutine of school, home, argue with "family", tv, complain about school and "family" and stress, argue over hw and "family" and stress, computer, cry about school and "family" and stress, hw, (stressing through it all) sleep(if im lucky ill actually get sleep and if im stuper lucky ill get at least the minimum requirement) and then get up to screaming and cold and stress, argue, run around, worry, get in the car, argue, get to school, and start all over again..... i miss what little spontainity i once i had. i miss when i used to be happy and content and be able to run around the house getting along with most of my "family" (when i used to call them my family) laughing and smiling and just well being happy.... i miss when i dint hafta worry about my future and all of its limits, and there are quite a few limits..... i miss when everything could inspire a new story in my mind.... but nowadays, im lucky if i can even get inspired enough to do my homework or clean my room or well, type on my computer.... well.... 3:00 am.... yes i had one of those lil need-to-talk inspirations to type journal entries..... so, this is actually my 2nd journal entry.... ninja no one shall ever know what the other contains..... why? cuz ninja this is the first and only time i shall even consider telling anyone so i hope plenty of people read this one.... well actually i dont but o well..... here it is .... *drumroll* DUN DUN DUN!! i have a new account.... iv had it for at least a week now..... it is completely secret from all but one person whom i would confide in for just about anything..... ok.... so thats out, im tired.... and while i feel that i could go on typing all night, i honestly dont think it wise since tomorrow is sunday.... >.0 damn overload of sunday stress..... damn anatomy.... 18 oral quizzes over a bazillion and 22 things in under 10 days..... fun..... NOT I SHUDDER AND DIE INSIDE EVEN THO I WAS BEING SARCASTIC (no seriously i do eek gonk , dead serious.... hehe get it? die inside? dead serious? i dint even mean to do that) ok well, night everyone..... maybe i can have a good dream that i will actually remember for once..... bai and night everyone and anyone and no one and whoever the hell else......
ps.... i miss all my brothers and my sister.... uschi, anja, dagmar, astrid, lothar-er maybe .... er that it? hope i dint forget anyone..... well loves yas all and hope you all have a really good night heart heart cry cry 3nodding 3nodding
o and i miss mel mel too....er sorta..... heart heart sweatdrop sweatdrop
Unni Ineo · Sun Nov 27, 2005 @ 08:09am · 1 Comments |
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