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Danzavare
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Sun Jun 14, 2009 @ 03:39pm

You know what I find ironic? That despite being surrounded with so many people, none of them knew my sadness. I would joke away and pretend to be happier than I was. That is until, I started talking to you. Funny, I was so cynical at first. "What is this magic box? What could it do for me? Pixels?" Funny that. lol Who knew, despite being the furthest I would come to consider you the closest of all my friends. Heck, I started to laugh and joke because I felt better, not to hide anything. I've trusted no one else with so many secrets or inner thoughts. No one else has been there for me at night when like you I felt alone. Initially, I was disgruntled by the fact you lived so far away. Thinking "Oh c'mon, I find someone who blows away all expectations and fuels my fire and she's an ocean away." Now, (perhaps stupidly) I get sudden bursts of energy I haven't had in such a long time thinking that you, a real person even bothers to deal with me. My hands shake and vibrate, in my child-like excitement.

I may not know exactly what it is like, but for the most part I'm at home writing essays or away from busy friends. Little things bring their own controversy. Still, I'm sad that the world is denied of you. (Would I be a little jealous if I had to share such a friend with the world? xD ) It seems your 'curse' brought you to the realm of the beasts. Amongst the wolves, tigers, fish, birds and bugs you stumbled upon a lonely fox. Whether you meant to or not, you gave him reason to look beyond his own spite and crack a genuine smile. His savage clawing now an excited mime of his stories, his wild kicks now a funny and awkward dance and his shaky growl now a whole hearted laugh. (How's that for an extended metaphor? ;D )

"My confidence is in a sense, a gift you've given me"

There will always be a place for you here in Australia! (And a metaphorical place for you in my heart >.>; ) In the next year or so we are likely to get jobs and I at least will have more free time. A bit of money, a web cam, a plan and endless possibility, yeah? Use your imagination. Say the word and I'll do everything I can. 3nodding

On a final note: WEAR YOUR DAMN SUN TAN LOTION! I will not have you harmed or ill because of stupid things like that! *Is directly under the O-Zone hole and panicky* For me? ;_;

SknO
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Mon Jun 15, 2009 @ 01:12pm

I see.
Draconis do not worry so much.^_^
It is true there is much danger out there in the world...But do not let it keep you fro doing what you desire...But at the same time use that wisdom that you have within you.
First thing you should do is decide what it is that you want to do. And seek to do it.
You want independence...and I am sure you will find it..Just take things slowly. I am sure you will get to where you want to go. You are just about to start the 11th, so this is a great time to think about things that you would like to do. When you have found it set out to do it. You have the whole world in front of you and no one can take that away from you. You can do it.^_^ I know it. You are a strong person. Also, I shall pray for you. Also, I am happy to have met you, and I am sure there are others who feel the same way and perhaps even more. *points to the post above mine* you are moving this can be a great start for you and it could mean new adventures. So do not count your self out of the game before you even start...or before you realize where you are in life and what you are capable of.
I hope where you move is not too far.You lived somewhat lose to me.
Also, do wear your sunscreen. It is very important. Also, Danzy made the ;_; face so it is very serious business. xD

Do not worry and sit against a wall...change the position of that computer of yours..>.> Also, do not worry about it..material things fade eventually...They do not make products like they used to..That is what my parents tell me...So just cheer up okay. *gives you a cookie*
You are welcome about the hair. I am happy it helped. ^w^

Xathoa
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Fri Jun 19, 2009 @ 08:15am

And I am honored you let me close enough. But I told you, I am like a parasite. I worm my way into people's hearts without even meaning to sometimes. Be careful... But you know that. You're very smart.
"Deal with you"? Haha! Please. I love being around you... Or at least writing to you.

Mmreh... jealousy is a strange thing...
I am lucky that this fox did not flee from a dragon...
Actually, if anyone has to put up with the other, I think you have put up with me. Sure you haven't actually been with my most "bitey" moods, but you have put up with a lot.

That is comforting to know. Quite so.~
And yet only that can go so far... But it is something... I'll be working towards to that time then...
What words are you looking for? I have quite a few that would work in this instance.

Well I got this kinda late... I didn't wear any... But I didn't go swimming! My cousin pestered me and pestered me to go swimming with him, but I didn't want to. Didn't feel like it... I just sat under one of the trees and read/drew/thought. Mostly just sitting and thinking... but I did get slightly burnt. xD Can't say 'slightly' for my brother though... He was literally a lobster boy. >_>

@SknO:
Like I said, worry seems to always find me. I seem to have no choice but to worry. -_-;
Well... I don't know what I want to do. I haven't known... though... I partially do on one subject...

Well... moving... but quite slowly... Not everything has been packed.. actually, we haven't even looked at houses yet. Dx in the city, my ma was hurting too much to go look at houses... I was... a bit disappointed, but I understand. Hopefully next time we can check... hopefully..

But I don't even like the weird oily stuff. D: I have also heard bad things about it. Anyways, I didn't really need it... >.> Not really...

Computer is stuck. xD Can't move it. O_o Actually, the way our house has all the things insides it... Moving things would be a tough task... *looks around* Quite so... Small place, lots of stuff. X.x
Yes, that is true... but I still feel bad for breaking it. <.<;
*nibbles on cookie*

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Never did get to see those stars. Only on the last day we were there did I wake up in the middle of the night and see a few... but they weren't as pretty as that one night...

Also on the way home to my granma's house, out front left tire blew. The wheel was almost literally stripped. So we sat there in the heat until some people came to help... actually a person. O_o My great grandma.. was.. impatient... -_-;
Oh yes, and while waiting in the car, across the street was this odd black cloth. So my sister and granma started to question what it was. I found it amusing. My granma said it was some black boxers with hearts on them. My sister said it was a neckerchief with butterflies on it. So, they started arguing a little more loudly and my ma and I got involved a bit. (more so my ma did) They started betting, and in the end, the winner of the bet would get the neckerchief. Well... there was the question of who was going to cross the street. The street was kinda busy, but in a way where it was hard to expect cars. And they were quite fast on this street. My sister said she would get it, but my mother said a strict no to that. So my ma said she would get it but my brother and I protested to that. We didn't want to see her get hurt. I mean, she can't run across the street. She is already hurting. She still gets out and my granma follows. They start talking out there and finally when there is a large enough gap for a run, my granma goes across. She picks it up carefully and starts laughing. Runs back to the car and talks to my ma outside the car again and they both start laughing. Wanna guess who won the little "bet"? They come in and tell my sister she won it. Exactly what she described. We get an extra bag for it and they put it in. They go out of the car again and walk to the back to place it there. Come back in and tell that the wind blew it away. Sister is a bit upset she lost her trophy. But that was a lie. They actually had it, brought it home and secretly washed it and gave it to her. I was asleep when she got it. Too tired and grumpy at the time to stay up.
Anyways, I just wanted to share that odd happening.... and... Nothing else happened really... Though I did help bake brownies. x'D But all I did was grease the pan. D': How much of a help was that? Dx
And we names some bugs. xD Bertrand the dead grasshopper (though I think he was slightly alive). Schnider the bright orange caterpillar. Barthollamew the creepy yellow spider (He stared at us. o_o ). And I think Dorathy the dead moth. Um.... Yeah...
Now I'm done... X_x;; I think...

SknO
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Fri Jul 10, 2009 @ 01:17pm

I see. Wow.
Sorry about the delay.
Also, a little sunblock helps I know silly. xD
Also, I like brownies...and help is help nonetheless and is cherished.^_^
I am sure of that..
Moreover, I like buggies.^_^ I met Henry the lady bug this year...^_^ He stayed with me until I told him bye.^_^ (It could have been a her >.>..xD)

Xathoa
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Fri Jul 10, 2009 @ 01:27pm

Oh tis fine. ^^ You have a life to work on, and I shouldn't expect you to be on all the time.
Still, the stuff is .. beh! ... But I promised that I'd wear it next time. >_>
But it was just a pan. But... I guess you're right.
What an amusing ladybug. xD It could have been... but Henry seems to have fit for the time being. x'D I like finding this things. And naming them is funny.

I shall carry my egg with me wherever I go. o_o
Cause I'm strange like that. ;D

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