rolleyes scream .... i was going to stay after school and catch up on my art since im behind(not really my fault-damn mislabeled jars-+its a slow process)..... and the layer i was working on doesnt look quite the way i want it to so i was going to redo it or fix it up or something..... but i remembered that my "dad" was picking me up.... so i get my stuff packed up and call my "mom" just to make sure. unfortunately he had already left so i would have to tell him when he got there that i was staying(since geoff is so hard to find and doesnt deliver useful messages) SO about 5 or 10 minutes later i go out to where we are usually picked up and gave up on staying after.... then i begin to wonder wheather my "mom" told him where we get picked up or not..... and after about 10 minutes i called her and asked .... she hadnt.... so i decide to wait a few minutes and then walked up to the sidewalk out front of the school (as in the side that faces the road).... and i wait.... and i called again.... and my "mom" was even more frustrated at me than she had been when i called and tried to figure out how id be able to stay after and what not (and continued to get worse and worse throughout my story). after a while i finally just walked to the other end of the building..... so, iv been out in the cold for over 20 minutes now, waiting for someone whom i have more hate for than anyone in the world could possible have to go somewhere i really really really really didnt want to go("home" wink ..... and i see a van in the parking lot that resembles the one my "dad" is supposed to be in but i dont know very well what that looks like EXACTLY and no one was in it so i decide to go looking, but wait!! im still on the phone and my mom is screaming at me telling me shes gonna call the office and i keep repeating that im going inside to go look to see if hes there and she keeps telling me that ill miss him if i go inside (even though id be looking for him and it would be going in the same door that thing would be coming out of) stressed stressed and shes so loud that i dont want to go near the people all hovered around the door and im getting so frustrated that all i wanna do is scream but NOooOOoo cuz there is people around rolleyes stressed mad mad mad mad and finally i talk her out of calling the damn school and go inside, muttering to myself all sorts of profanities like damn humans and ******** and s**t and so on and so forth (not that i hadnt been saying them since 2:30 when i realized i wouldnt be able to stay after school and that the a*****e was picking me up)well, finally inside, i see him walking down main street from the other end and he has the nerve to ask me where ive been scream evil stressed scream gonk stressed .... and then i had to ride home with the a*****e gonk gonk
in the van.... i sat in the back because i was so extremely angry.... and then we argued over whether the clock in the van was 10 minutes fast or not and whether or not i waited more than 20 minutes.... and then i decided i wasnt going to talk to him any more and i told him to shut up because i dint want to hear it and that i want going to talk to him.... and he says but you are.... and i said "im not talking to you" and i kept repeating myself and he kept arguing (clearly having fun).... and then i just shut up and he said see now youre not talking to me, i know the difference and bla bla bla .... and then i shut off the radio cuz it bothered me.... so he started to whistle.... i said nothing despite getting even angrier.... (o and i started to cry but forced myself to stop).... and eventually he stopped.... and then he started making other annoying noises..... and then a bowl(most likely geoffs) slid around in the van.... and he had the nerve to TELL ME TO BRING IT IN.... and he was still clearly having fun being an a**..... until i got home.... he slammed his door and happily walked into the house.... while i gathered up my stuff, opened the door, left the bowl, and stormed inside.... and up the stairs, because he decided to stalk me stare stressed .... and then i ran to my room and slammed the door, throwing all my stuff on the floor and laying down under my blankets to get warm and be frustrated (my room is way too bright to feel anything good in) and now here i am.....
dude, im listening to this weird new age music station type thingy over the internet/on windows media player.... and the song goes with sky.... and its making me go emo gonk i hate the way the sky looks and how it affects my room.... er, right now i hate it i mean.... at night its awesome..... but during the day it sucks.... and the song is piano.... so its pretty.... but its depressing.... stare gonk sad cry crying scream mad rolleyes neutral eek domokun
Unni Ineo · Tue Dec 13, 2005 @ 09:16pm · 2 Comments |