I finally have something actually WORTH writing.
Something with meaning and emotions embedded into each phrase I'll type.
Its been bothering me all this time and causing me all this pain, but now I realize that if I want to make it through this, I'll just have to forget you and leave the past behind.
I've been writing poetry again. For the first time in months.
Each word stabs through me like a knife trying to find something to sever.
Its just insane how much it hurts to understand this all so suddenly. I don't know anymore, just read this. It might not make sense since I came up with it in a few minutes at like 3am :/
Burn me alive,
darkness trying to consume my soul.
Sever my skin and swallow me whole.
When you've got nowhere else to hide,
and the situation is out of control,
will you let my inner demons violate their parole?
I'm living without a motive to survive.
And all the pressure being put on me is finally taking it's toll,
including this useless pain in my chest that you make me hold.
Now I know, that in you I can never confide.
Its only now that I can manage to scream out, my words so bold.
I can't continue wasting my time, there's a future I must uphold.
*Psychic vampire, living off of my emotions, which you cleverly deprive.
I'm not afraid this time of a lonely feeling. Aching and leaving me cold.
Because keep in mind, that my life has just been sold.
Letting go of you, so you can't hurt me now even if you tried.
For me, a dark future was always been foretold.
You dragged me into this mess, and as punishment, my demons you will behold.
My last words are: "Remember that its your fault I died..."
*The term "psychic vampire", don't take it literally as a psychic vampire. Its a term used to describe people who seemingly have the ability to drain the people around them of their energy and emotionally weaken them.
 Deadstar x Assembly · Sun Jul 19, 2009 @ 08:32am · 1 Comments |
