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Have you ever felt like... everything is perfect, then again, something was wrong? Like... Whenever your phone lit up, your heart skips a beat, and you're hoping its one person... yet when its not them, you feel disappointed? Why is that? Why does it skip a beat when the text message does come, and its just a hello but you love it all the same? I think i finally have that person to look forward too. Then again I'm a teenager, so what's to say its wrong... again...
I'll get on with this though. I can't tell you to much about him... and I'm wary of putting his name. My stomach is churning because.. well what if he finds this? lol. I really do care for him, since i got his first text message asking if i was okay when i was sitting in my mom's car, on her cell phone doing stuff online because she was inside with my little brother, visiting my grandma. I had just updated my myspace status-thinking no one really read it- and put "At nursing home again... please text me." and my number. Why was i surprised to get a message? lol.
I remember asking who it was, and when he said "Derek" i was like... "Delece??" and messaged back saying, "when did you get a new phone?! o:!"It was pretty confusing, and when he said it was the guy who played Derek on Myspace i was all... "Oh s**t, you're a fool!" I use to roleplay with him, and wandered what he was like, the guy behind the computer. I even remember thinking he was probably 20 something years old!
But no... he was more towards my age, and he wouldn't tell me his name. It made me nervous, because my name was on my myspace! He was actually very sweet, kept hugging me [With star quotes duh] and it made me relax some. After that i was sure to keep talking to him, and then i found out his name, by accident, from his friend.
Oh his friend. When i talked to them like that, i had a funny feeling and it sorta did hurt... then "Derek" finally admitted, the two were dating, but they did like me, and hoped it didn't bother me to much. Of course not! Two hot emo guys to text? of course i was okay with it! As time went by, it turned out they had some problems, and came to me for help. I was glad to help, and after that, i don't know where time went.
So it was very recently when i was texting "Derek", talking about some stuff about his friend, when suddenly he says he wants to kiss me. I was like "o//o Woah are you kidding?" That's what i'd dreamed about, and wondered. I found it... odd that minutes before my mom said "Those two will always be together" then i got a message saying they weren't.
What would you have done? I really liked him, since that first day, and even now... i do still adore him... but what bugs me is the distance, how i can't hold him or kiss him. He says its fine, but i still wonder... and i feel my heart still skipping necessary beats What i want to know now is... what are we?
 xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Fri Aug 21, 2009 @ 05:16pm · 0 Comments |
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