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Well things have not yet started looking up. In fact, they've gotten worse... I'm still out of a job and recently deferred from Biolife until November... I have absolutely no money coming in so I can't pay my cell phone bill, I have to borrow from my friends and parents, money that they don't have, to pay my monthly payment plan for my school fees, I haven't been able to buy any of my text books this year (that includes my math 1040 book, english 2010 bookS, and stage make up book). I'm finding out that Statistics is even more difficult than Algebra is and I couldn't do Algebra for the life of me. I'm already falling behind in that class and it doesn't help that I don't have the book... or that it's only one Monday a week... Just a short while ago, a friend of mine from the College died (He drowned saving his sons from drowning), and the other day, my great uncle died, one of my grandma's is getting worse and really bad Alzheimer's, and my other grandma has had two surgeries already ... I've got so much stuff going on right now that I don't have any idea what to do or where to start... I hardly get to see my friends because I'm so busy with school and everything, but I need outlets to keep even just a little sane, so then I go and squeeze more stuff into my already full schedule like Dickens Festival Theatre Company and the Field of Screams, but without them, I'm sure I would truly give up. I'm still waiting for my last paycheck from the Candy Bouquet; hopefully that will come soon and hopefully that will be at least three or four hundred dollars (Wishful thinking...) But anything will be a little bit of a relief. Right now, I'm just taking things one day at a time and I believe things will start to get slightly better if/when I graduate at the end of this semester. That will be as long as I can keep up with my English and if I magically pass my math. Actually, I think that's all that's really pushing me forward. To finish this semester so that I can take in a deep breath, devote my time to finding a good paying job, paying everyone back, then saving up to take my long awaited trip to Japan. stressed