dude, i now have a theory..... a possible self-realization..... maybe part of the reason why i deeply hate geoff so much is because he makes me worry so much.... perhaps some of my hatred is just a way to keep myself from worrying about him. i mean, if you hate someone or dont know them, then if something bad happens it tends to not hurt so bad....
i mean, sure he is an a** to me and all, but deep down i think i do worry about him....
i also know that i am a little jealous in a kind of twisted way.... actually im kinda jealous of quite a few people. mainly geoff tho cuz he has so many people that do worry about him and care enough to have him tested when he has problems. i mean, he was the first one to get a councilor and hes the only one of us to have his very own, whereas iv been BEGGING for a few years now.....
tonight was miserable because i was remembering so much that i had completely blocked out of my memory just in an attempt to help mel feel a lil better after rick told her mom that she should just give up custody and tell tim(mels dad) that she cant handle them anymore.....
i also realized how used to the fighting and s**t that goes on in the house i am.... i mean, nowadays i hear yelling and i say to myself, "must be Geoff again" and just shrug it off and play on the computer.....
Unni Ineo · Sun Jan 15, 2006 @ 06:25am · 1 Comments |