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I honestly want to know-
Is love real?
It can't be. If love was real I wouldn't be like this. I wouldn't be this girl that hurts the people that she 'loves'. I wouldn't be hurting him. I wouldn't have started this, He wouldn't be hurting, the pain would go away...

I want to know-
Is there a happy ending?
No, nothing ever ends for the better. I would know. I wouldn't be here ranting if there was. He wouldn't have had to gone away. I could be in his arms. We'd be together, he wouldn't have had to gone away....

I want to know-
If he does still love me.
Does he? Could he? Why should he?
I don't think this is right, he couldn't... could he? after what I did to him- Could he...?

I want to know-
Is this what it feels like- to lose it all... TO not know who you are anymore..
To not know how things will end....

I want to know-
Am I killing him?
I think so.... He shouldn't be like this, I could have prevented this...


I want to know-
Why did I fall for him?
I knew he was moving, I should have just kept to myself... been the good girl....
But he was to amazing..... He was.... perfect....

I want to know-
How I let myself do this.
Was it that they talked me into it.....
Was it just me being selfish...
Was it me trying to keep this from getting worse....?

I want to know-
Joey....... Do you love me?

I want to know-
Do you miss me?

I want to know-
Would you be better if I was gone?

I want to know.....
Is life simply worth living.....?