I wish I could get over my insecurities and paranoia and be the man you need me to be, but I'm not. I am completely oblivious and do not posses the proper knowledge to behave differently. I need you to explain your expectations, explain everything, and I will abide by them. However I do believe you won't for many reasons. I think I can even understand. I'm no good for you and you're too good for me and I always knew this. I wish you the happiest of life because I do believe you deserve it, my sweetest friend. I will be different. I will not try to be different, because the word try implies that failure is acceptable, it is not. I know I should say I'm doing this for myself, but it's for you. Like I told you, you're more than just a human being to me, you are a symbol for many things as well. Perhaps time will change things and this may be just ignorant youth speaking, but I will always have love for you and be willing to claim you for myself, the most amazing human being I have ever encountered. You raised the bar too high. Please remember that my door is always open to you in case of emergency. Take care of yourself.
 niatsu · Sat Dec 12, 2009 @ 06:00am · 0 Comments |
