Life...
Seems like life is not getting any better, My mom has the surgery and I hope that its a Success...Feels like Im driving every last soul away, that really makes me feel like imma disgrace to life. The girl I love I pressured to much...I wonder what could be going through her head...I dont know...Parents, Relatives, life period! She gave up on love for just a moment, kinda makes me want to give up on love, Cause it really really hurts and life is too much already. I used to be skinny with a 6 pack and alittle bit of tone on my body, now im big not that big but im big boned. I said something to her over the phone my relatives said and I know that i kind of hurt her abit. Feels like everytime I push the love away and everytime that happens she want really trust nor believe. I dont know whats happening to me its never been this way...but something telling me it will be worth it anyway. I saw something when I was in the car that night my aunt was criticizing my love, Signs poped up while i was in the car saying "Following your friends, Is very easy...but Following your heart, Thats very brave"...I thought about the signs and even though the girl I love said she gave up on love and l love her...something telling me to not give up on her and my friends say dont give up on love so im not going to give up on it and thats my word....Another thing is that my cousin died 3 days before christmas...he was one of my favorite cousin even though he accused me of trying to rape a little girl and actually called the cops on me but he knew that wasnt true and he was truely sorry about that and you know I didnt want to forgive him for that but I thought about it...what would God say about it? So I forgave him and we were catching up on some things but then he died and it kinda hurt me then my favorite uncle in the whole world went to the army I be worried every day even be worried about my mom even though she didnt have the surgery yet but Im worry that it wont come to a success.
You see how life is for me this is just one little part of my life theres more but I dont wont to discuss it...so please keep my mom in prayer and me tooo and I will do the same regaurdless. Love you all and have a bless day...v.v
 iKakashi iHatake · Wed Dec 23, 2009 @ 05:51pm · 0 Comments |
