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~*Break uuup.

Don't ask if i'm OK.
Because I can gurantee that i'm perfectly fine - I feel brilliant.
Don't say i've been acting weird.
Because i'm actually acting normal it's just i'm just not going to talk s**t.
Kenny and I broke up. No tears were shedded because I prepared myself. How? I don't know - Kenny can't handle the stress or he left me for the obsessed Angela.

I've apologised to her - frankly i don't even know her.
I don't know if he was cheating on me? NCHS gossip a whole lot.
Kenny and I are friends, but i choose not to talk to him because i look at him differently.
Since i'm not blinded by how much I like him, i can see who he really is.
It's obvious how he'll get through with girls. But i'm surprised how long this relationship lasted for my age.

I don't talk about it, but people are curious, so here.
I have great things to say about him, but i know the bad things about him. I just never chose to speak of those things when I was in a relationship with him. To put it frankly, it was nice to have him as a bf because then you don't seem so lonely. It's easy. It calms the hormones?
But honestly. When i'm single like a pringle - I get to mingle without feeling guilty.

I can say to anyone, "I'm at Tanner's house," without feeling like Kenny might lash at me - so I said that today as I was.
when you think of it ; I never got jealous when Kenny hung out with girls he did like, or pretty chickies. But it seemed he got jealous with any guy i hung with.
So when I got jealous with the angela chick, I spoke, I got dumped.There are things girls are suppose to shut up and deal with by themselves when in a realtionship. But the "cool gf" s**t doesn't work well with me.

So a year. Done - and i've been getting sad glances, but i feel nice. I have an experience and i'm ready to move on. I'm not going to call Kenny a jerk for dumping me. Because it was best. I'm not gonna call Angela a b***h anymore - because i'm better than that. she may have not accepted my apology. But who cares. She can call me a b***h.

I'll just wait for my apology till the day I die.
I'm not desperate Trevor ; you're just mad at me because I don't give a s**t what you say. You're just an a*****e who begs for attention the wrong way. I forever will never acknowledge you.

For as Tanner, I regret everything. When I talked to him till 2am that Saturday, things were confided. He made me regret, the biggest regret of my life. I want to take him, and things might work out.
But since Valerie has him, i'm not going to be the angela, and leave them alone.

But he's not married. It's his choice.

Stress free- single, and I get the chance to talk to people whom i've tried to avoid. Damn, it feels great.

Because boy, Kenny couldn't dance.