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Disenchanted.
I am disenchanted.
All my dreams are unreachable.
Everything I ever wanted I can never have.
I feel like the people who love me really don't.
I feel like I have nothing in the world.
Everything is twisted and wrong.
Everything is evil.
Words hurt me, nothing comforts me.
Actions have double meanings, entendres.
Deception, disguises, masks, lies.
Emptiness. Hollowed out insides.
Who am I? Where am I?
I just want someone to love me.
Somebody hold me, please.
Will the sacrifices I made someday be in vain?
Will I ever be good enough? I am insecure.
Emotional. Moody. Female.
Distraught, confused, trapped.
Restless, reckless, stuck.
Lonely.
...
I want to go someplace pure, where I can take everything
At face value.
I think there is something wrong with me.
I hurt the ones I love most.
I hurt myself.
I worry all day about problems that don't exist,
Shouldn't exist, at least.
Can I tell you? No. You won't know what to say.
I worry about you, the most.
Because I love you. I don't want to lose you.
But in holding on, I push you far, far away.
I am changing into something I don't recognize.
I think I'm growing up. I think I am.
Someone else.
 Peleandra · Wed Mar 17, 2010 @ 08:19am · 3 Comments |
