Thoughts... I wish I was attractive.
"But you are attractive." I don't think you are attractive therefore your opinion does not matter. You are saying that because you want me.... but you don't want me. You want someone and I just happen to be here. An opportunity. Reduced me down to a faceless being... your toy... your accessory.
Why do I need to feel attractive? It all fades away in time. Yet it is one of the most important things in life. Whatever you accept it or reject it, I believe this to be one of the unchangeable truths. All you need to do is observe and compare.
Do I need to feel attractive because I want to be desired? Is it because I feel undesired that I feel unattractive? Do I need to feel desired to feel attractive? But I am desired... at the present moment nonetheless. Why am I not satisfied? I know why... I don't consider the one to be attractive, therefore making this irrelevant. I believe I need to find the person attractive for their desire to make any difference within me. Why does this matter?
I wish I was satisfied.
Ten shades of ******** up, claw my eyes away.
 niatsu · Mon Sep 06, 2010 @ 08:18am · 0 Comments |
